It's just me...

my wordle...

2008-08-05T20:41:00.000+10:00

Bad blogger...

2008-03-24T23:20:00.002+11:00

as always....

I really need to come in here more often, but i get side tracked and then get too tired to worry about updating...

All is going well here, Amelia is going GREAT........
She is so wonderful and a great little baby girl..
The older 3 kids are going great too.. We are full into the swing of sports & activities, it can be hard to keep up some days...

Here's a run down of what we do after school.................

Pickup from school is 3.15pm..

Monday-
Jordan soccer training 4-5pm
Taylor netball training 5-6pm

Tuesday-
Jordan dancing 3.45-4.45pm
Dan dancing 4.45-5.45pm
Taylor guitar 5.30-6.00pm

Wednesday-
Jordan soccer trainging 4-5pm
Taylor dancing 6-6.45pm
Taylor singing at the club 7.15-9.00pm

Thursday-
Dan soccer training 4.30-6.00pm
Taylor netball trainging 5.00-6.00pm

Friday-
FREE yahooo!!!

Saturday-
Taylor Netball either 9 or 10am
Taylor Singing 11.30am
Dan & Jordan soccer, times TBA

you can see why i have to have it done up as a timetable stuck on our pantry door.. lol.. I have a shocking memory lately, never use to, but it seems to be getting worse...
Taylor was half an hour late to Netball training the other week, well she got there at 5.30pm, i thought it started at 5.30pm, but when every said, 'nice of you to show up Taylor'. She replied with... 'hey, i have a new baby sister in the house and mum fell asleep'!!!!!!!!!!
*blush* gee thanks Taylor......
YES, i had fallen asleep, but she got there right on 5.30pm,...............................
which is when i thought training started............ but nope, its at 5pm, has been for the last couple of weeks now................. ok ok, i still have baby brain.... can i blame that??????

Taylor's new news..........
It is all getting exciting here at the moment..........
i'll leave you hanging and be back soon.................. lol...xx

Fun Facts..

2008-03-10T12:05:00.000+11:00

Congratulations!
Your baby's birth date was Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Your conception date was most likely 5/22/2007
And your baby is 26 days old!
See what's happening in Week 4 of your baby's life!
The above information is based on a LMP date of 5/8/2007 and a 28 day cycle.

Fun Birthday Facts
Your baby's birthstone is Amethyst (Sincerity)
Your baby's Astrological Sign is Aquarius
Your baby's Flower is Violet or Primrose (Violet, Sky Blue or Yellow)
Your baby was born in the Chinese Year of The Rat
Your baby will start kindergarten in 2013, be old enough to drive a car in 2024, finish high school in 2026, and will graduate from college with the class of 2030, give or take a year. Can you imagine?
This time last year you weren't even pregnant yet!

Its a ........................

2008-03-03T22:54:00.002+11:00

GIRL....

yes i have been a bad blogger and need to do a HUGE update...

I'll have to come back again soon and do it though, as im off to bed now... lol, sorry...

here's a sneak peak....

Thankyou Kris for my wonderful beautiful photo...xx

3 days to go......

2008-02-11T20:20:00.000+11:00

I really need to update, esp. before i do 'pop'....

(but im ready for bed right now, sorry... but i want to share a couple of photos first, just incase i go now... i'll come back asap...)

Well i was worried i wouldn't get this photo, not that i thought id go early, but i just kept putting it off & off..
As you can see, i 'forgot' to get my 38wk photo... oopppss...
I also weighed myself this morning and i have put on 11.2kgs this pregnancy..I think that is still pretty ok. I think i had roughly put on about 20kgs with Jordan, and i had had him by now..I think i have doubled my weight since being on Maternity leave... :o( No wonder with what i have been eating while at home... I guess cause i have nothing else to do, so im eating...
Well i do have things to do, but i can' be bothered and i just can't seem to do what i want anyhow cause of my BIG bump and my HUGE sore feet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My (short) tall boy arrived the other day (i thought it wasn't going to get here before baby arrived!!), yippeee!!!
So now the baby's room is complete!!! if you can call it that??!!
Thankfully we don't use our lounge room, but have just renovated it, it is sooooooooo nice... Anyhow, the bassinet is now in here (so is the computer) and my tall boy that i had ordered to put in my room, is now in here too.... Its not really a nursery, its not really a baby's room, its not decorated at all, but it is still a nice place for baby to sleep.. (its actually the best room in the house now..lol..)
(sorry its not very big)...
The colours of the walls are actually a white colour & the carpet is a real chocolate brown (they actually gave us the wrong shade, i like it, but Brendan doesn't) The only thing yet to do in here is the tiles above the fire...
I used my old camera to take these, so there not the best..
The carpet looks a little odd, cause its new, it shows up every single mark, ie. foot prints & all.. lol.. (but it is the same carpet we got in our bedroom in early Dec. last year and it doesn't do it anymore.. )
This is a really old house, just more modern now.. lol.. (well, we think so.. )
Wish all rooms could be this big (there are 12 lights in the ceiling, thats how big it is..lol..). Our rooms are big (being an old house, but imagine all b/rms being this big!! lol.)

I went shopping the other morning and bought a new U-shape pillow, ready for feeding.
I really want a new recliner to put in the corner of our 'baby's room', Brendan is thinking about it, but it wont be here before baby comes though.. I also then went to the new HUGE baby shop that just opened up in the next town... I was in there for what seemed like ages, (i was asked by about 4 ladies if i was right as i was just wandering around for ever).. i wish i had an open bank account to buy EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!i found a couple of cot sets i really liked, but thought i might just wait and see if baby is a boy or a girl and then decide. The bassinet is going to be used for as long as we can, so ive got time to pick out something when we know the sex... (i actually wanted a little lamp, but there was nothing that jumped out at me, or they were either too boyish or girlish, so i'll wait!!!) I did buy a little basket though (in the above picture), for my new cupboard though (it had a little cow on it..lol..)... I couldn't buy nothing... lol

Ok, im going to bed now...
i'll try & catch up better soon......xx

4wks to go...

2008-01-16T09:26:00.000+11:00

Well i have been a very bad blogger lately..
Everything has been up in the air for the past 5wks and not in a good way either..

Baby wise, all is going well..
I have been having extremely strong and LOTS of branxton hicks, very OFTEN!!! but my midwife puts it all down to me being over worked & over stressed..
I have started Maternity Leave now, WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!! and i have to admit, even though i have still been having them, not as much as before...
From my most recent photo, it looks like i have grown, but i haven't actually (according to my measurements at checkup) but baby has dropped a little bit, so that throws my bump out of shape too..

After sitting with my Nan for 4wks, almost every single day and sometimes over night (sleeping in her recliner) she had had enough of fighting it and passed away at 10.10pm Friday 4th of January 2008... She was in so much pain, (but thankfuly was medicated enough for her not feel it) so she is much better off, being at rest now...
It is still so hard to comprehend that she has gone. It sure has been a struggle lately.
We had her funeral last Wednesday and it was just beautiful..
It was pretty hard to see the kids break down and be so upset for the whole thing, but they needed to be there as they were close to Nan and loved her very much..
Jordan was the hardest to watch, as when we (just the family) got up to put a rose each on the casket, he just broke down. That broke my heart (again)...
Mum is going well, but she is finding it hard at certain times. Thats understandable though. It will just take time for everyone to come to terms with it all..

Reno's wise...
The lounge room is looking EXCELLENT.. it looks like something in a display home, if i do say so myself.. lol
We have 12ft ceilings and they are VERY decorative (hence, taking Brendan AGES to paint), but they are so worth it..
Brendan ripped up the carpet a couple of weeks ago and the floor boards are beautiful..
We're just waiting for the sander/staining guy to come tomorrow or Friday to give us a quote and hopefully it wont be too long and he can get stuck into them..
Not that we use that room that much, it is a big chunk of the house and is right THERE in your face when you walk in, so it will be good to have it finished..
Plus that is where the baby will be sleeping too.. :o)

Well the kids and i are having a lazy day today. I really would love to go for a drive to the beach or something, but i think its going to be to hot today (that makes sense, doesn't it, NOT!!!) i just don't want to have to be sitting around in the heat!!!! OH and an icecream from Cold Rock would be just devine.. But, i just can't be bothered going anywhere today... lol
So, a lazy day at home is on the cards i think...........................xx

my big growing belly!!!!

2007-12-20T22:01:00.000+11:00

just wanted to share this while i was in a sharing mood...

bbl with more of an update.. baby is doing well though...

:o)

3D scan..

2007-12-04T14:09:00.000+11:00

Oh i can't believe i haven't made the time to show off my new photos...

I have just about worn out the printed copies of these, showing them off to anyone & everyone that will stand still long enough near me, to show them off...

A couple of weeks ago, someone from the parenting forum (EB) posted that they were getting 3D scans done locally..

It was purely for 'looking', nothing medically at all.. The cost was $40 and WOW, what a bargin that is these days for 3D scans.....

Anyhow, i sussed it all out and made an appointment to have a little lookie at my baby... (i want as many looks as i can possibly get!!!!) :o)

I also decided to take mum with me, as she has never seen any of my scans, even though she has been at all 3 deliveries. She has also never seen a 3D scan either.

And i wanted to take the kids with us too...

The appointment was for last Thursday, the 29th of November at 2.30pm.
I picked the kids up from school early, headed on into Maitland to pick Mum up from work and then headed to the John Hunter Hospital. At the Medical Suites there..

Well, as soon as the scanner was put on my (big) belly and the image came on the screen, i cried!!!! I couldn't stop then...

OMG how beautiful was my baby and how wonderful was it to see my tiny little baby, even though he/she is still in me!!!! (gosh, im going to start crying now)...

then WOW!!!!!!! my gosh, doesn't this little baby look like Taylor!!!!!!!!!??

well that's the first thing i though anyhow, and then so did mum too...

(the boys were a bit roudy, but) both Mum & Taylor were just in awe of it all too...

The lady doing the scan said how beautiful my baby was (she probably says that to everyone??) and how clear the scan was, how perfect baby was & how cute too... :o)

here are a couple of photos of my little baby...

She did try to get some images in 4D, but baby was sound asleep and didn't move at all, so i didn't get much of that... :o( (well only 7secs, but baby didn't move)..

Baby did move his/her fingers (you can see his/her hand up near his/her far cheek) the tiniest bit, but not much..

more baby & reno update...

2007-11-26T13:18:00.000+11:00

Well im 28wks & 4 days today...

I can't believe how fast this is going...

I know i only showed this similar photo 2wks ago, but when Taylor took my photo this morning, i couldn't believe that i looked a little bit different??!!!

I feel i look bigger in real life than i do in this photo. I still feel like i look like i do in the photo at 26wks. And even though that is only 2wks ago, looking at today's belly shot, my bump does look a little different????

Only 7wks left of work, yahoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

Im getting alittle bit worried about my legs & feet, just like when i was pregnant with Jordan. They are really really puffy already, and i still have just over 11wks to go, so im sure they will only get bigger.. They were HUGE with Jordy, so no doubt they will this time round again.

im off to have my GD test on Thursday and then a clinic checkup a week Friday.

The reno's are still coming along.. Our bedroom (sorry boys, your old room) is now finished!!
The built-in was done last Saturday (the one before the last), but there was some problems with it, so i had to get them back to fix up there stuff ups!!!
Oh still waiting on the blinds and then its finished.. :o)

which should be, in about 1.5wks...

I moved our bed in last week, not reallly a good idea for a 27wk pregnant lady, but i did it anyhow. (pulled it all apart first & dragged it in, then put it together in the new room)

I LOVE sleeping in there, it is so nice & fresh, except for the street light coming in through the big exposed window... lol

I have slowly started putting our clothes in, but im taking my time, cause i can't be bothered too.. lol.

BUT, the first thing i did put in there, was the baby's clothes... I MUST take a photo and share.. It looks so cute.............

Brendan is still doing the lounge room, but it is a HUGE job. will be so worth it when its finished. Even having the new lights in looks fantastic, so once its all painted it will look even better..

Once we have finished the lounge room, we'll then move onto our old room which will be the boys new room...

Taylor had her singing Christmas concert on Saturday.

She sang Tomorrow (from Annie) and a Christmas song with another girl, Cassie. She did a wonderful job...

im kicking myself, my bloody video camera was dead i discovered just before she was to go on stage. I did have my little camera (photo) with me, so i taped it on that.. Its not the best recording, but at least i got it..... I'll have to see if i can YouTube it... :o)

Nothing else to report on though, i don't think???

Finally put some Christmas presents on lay-by today, talk about pushing my luck!!!!
I always seem to leave things to the last minute, but i have never been this late with Christmas presents...

I have only (i think) done the kids now, i have no idea what im going to get anyone else????

Its turning out to be a bit of a pain in the butt Christmas this year!!! Wrong time of the year to be pregnant... lol

ok, till next time.....................xx

:o)

baby & reno update...

2007-11-12T13:15:00.000+11:00

When i first found out i was pregnant, i had all intentions of taking photos every week to see the difference/growth. As i hadn't taken ANY photos with my other 3 babies.. :o(

But, in true (hopeless) form of me, this is only my 3rd photo ive taken!!! :o(

I am so cranky with myself....... but nothing i can do about it now..

I MUST try & remember to take one every week from now on, but sadly, there wont be as much change, noticeable change now as there would of been much earlier on..... oh well...

Here's my scary 3 (& only 3.. :o( ) belly shots..
BEWARE........

really scary look here!!!!!!!!

im counting down the days till i finish up work.. 9wks today and im on Mat. leave...

Scary in one way (money wise) but SO great on the other hand!!!!!!

And i can't belive that im 26wks & 4 days!!!! gosh the time is flying..

We are so much in the middle of renovations at the moment its not funny, so it would be good to be home full-time at the moment to be able to do things around the house. But then again, its probably better not to be here and have to do the work... lol

The new fence is FINALLY getting put up today, yay!!!!!!
the new carpet for the (old) boys room, our (re-newed) room, the 'storm damage' room, is getting laid on Thursday YIPPPEEE!!!! and the built-in will be put in on Saturday, DOUBLE YIPPPEEE!!!! it is so exciting..

I CAN'T WAIT to put our bed in and stock up the cupboard with our clothes & the baby's clothes!!! then i can concentrate on cleaning out our (old) room empty it out ready for Brendan to put the new downlights & ceiling fan in and then paint it..

THEN the boys can move in to there (new) room... :o)

We probably wont get to the boys room until the lounge room is done, but that shouldn't take too long, but at least things are going ahead, finally!!!!

Baby is really kicking up a storm these days.. I lied in bed the other night and Jordan was interested to feel the baby kick.. So i kept his hand on my 'exposed' belly and he felt some really great big kicks. I then told him to watch carefully, and he could see my belly jump up & down. He thought that was facinating.. He then bend down and gave my belly a great big kiss.. Just as he was moving away, a great big kick was seen, almost reaching him..

We have decided to move into the boys old room. Even though it was there room before the storm and we told them it will still be there room when it gets finished. Guilty now, we have decided that it would be best for us to move back into the room. It is actually a 'parents room' and that is obvious. So we want it to look its best and what it really is, when we put it on the market, hopefully soon.. Plus, even though we will have the baby (bassinet) in the lounge room, baby will sleep in there, we will be able to push the bassinet into our room on 'inspection' days while trying to sell the house. In other people's eyes, it looks better to see a baby sleeping in the parents room, than it does in a lounge room.. Im not the type of person that likes to have a baby sleeping in with the parents, so baby wont sleep in with us, but the bassinet will sit in our room (as in the 'new' room, it will fit nicely) only at inspection times...................

I can't wait for our room to be done this week though, so i can have the baby things set up in our room/built-in.. :o)

We have a clinic checkup this Friday. Im really looking forward to it. To see how things are going. Plus i'll have to book in for my GD test and hopefully, Cherly might let us know about having another scan??? hopefully????I'll come back later and up-date...

ive had HEAPS of people tell me they think i am having a girl, even Brendan is dead set sure were having a girl?????????

I first thought i was having a boy and that was/is my prediction, BUT i have predicted the wrong sex with ALL the kids!!!!!

Now im really confused??? I sort of have a feeling this is a girl and from looking at the scans too, but there not that clear really and i think im looking for what i want to see??!!!

But do i stick with my original prediction or do i go with my new predicition???? It is killing me, i really want to know?!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive copied & pasted parts of this post from the baby's blog, and now its all out of order.. The worse thing about this 'blogger' is you can't really cut & paste that well??!!! oh well, at least its here... :o)

just a bit of a rave..

2007-11-02T18:37:00.000+11:00

Hi,
Just popping in to say hi.. I don't seem to get here as much as i would like to. I know i will kick myself later on, way down the track when i want to check on things and ive been so slack & not been in here...

Baby is going well, but i guess i don't really say much in here about that either, slack-arse mum i am. But baby does have his/her own blog, so that gets more attention than here... *ooppss*

House is slowly coming on..
Its hard to believe that a little bit of rain (well, it wasn't a little bit) could do so much damage and cause so much stress..
The boys room has been gutted & lined. Brendan is up to the painting side of it, only just sealed it this week, but thats a start.
Went up & pick the carpet out this morning and thats now on order.
Built-in has been measured & quoted and that has been ordered too..
THANK GOODNESS for insurance is all i can say..................
i know we have had to wait well over 4mths for it all to get started and i have had so many problems with the house & stress from it all (plus with the baby too), at least i am grateful that it has started.
The area was so badly damaged here & around us, that some people still don't have homes to go to. I have never seen such rain/damage in all of my life (& neither has alot of older people around us) and i never want to see it again.
I have got some photos of the walls in the boys room (not of the actuall flood, :o( ) but im at work at the moment, so if i remember, i'll share them..

Our old fence was ripped out & down today, BOY what a big job that was. The new one comes on Monday & Tuesday, yippppeeeeee..

Im still stressing myself out about the whole house thing and hoping everything falls into place for when the baby arrives, but theres nothing i can do about that really.. But in true form of me, i can't stop the stressing...
I don't have a 'baby checkup' till the 16th of this month, so i need to try & stop my worry.. Hopefully when we go for that checkup i'll get to book in for another scan, as Cheryl wants me to have a 'growth scan' to make sure everything is ok (cause of the tablets i take, but shhhhhhhhh don't tell her, i didn't have to have these scans with Tay, Dan or Jordi..lol..)

Oh & im 25wks & 1 day today......... :o)

We got some bad news today... My nan found out today she has Ovarian Cancer. I still don't think its sunk in properly yet. She's been sick for a little while now & waiting on the test results, plus she has Macular Degeneration (which she's had for ages/a couple of years) so that doesn't help her much. But her news isn't very good. They are booking her into hospital straight away and will then look when they get in, to see if it has spread at all??
Its all a bit worrying too, as my mum had Cervical Cancer when she was 33, twice. So its something that is going to have to be always looked into & after..

Anyhow im raving now, sorry bout that..

I went with the guys from the office today to buy plates & cutlery etc. for our new kitchen here at work. We will probably be spending about $20,000. just on that sort of thing. We are getting 700 of each size plate & folk/knife/spoon, etc. Then there's the pots & pans, carving knives, utensils, etc.. You don't realise how much there is actually to buy when starting up something like this.. Even though we already have everything. We are still buying EVERYTHING brand new, as we want to impress with a clean, fresh new start. Spending 2 million dollars, we hope to impress.. lol

Well i best go, only an hour before i can go home..
have a great weekend
love Peta..xx

Well guess whot!!!!

2007-10-08T20:29:00.001+10:00

We have just had our building approved by NRMA, YIPPPPPEEEEEEE!!!!!!! this morning...
We are so excited, we just can't believe that it has finally come through. Its been 4mths today (by date) and we really have been living in a 2 bedroom house for the past and boy has it been hectic and a PITA..
At least now, we can finally see the end of the tunnel. Its going to be all steam ahead though...
Our bathroom will finally be finished this week, YIPPPEEE fingers crossed (just waiting for the glass to be installed)..
The boys bedroom will be underway soon, then new carpet & a new built-in, our loungroom will be repaired and renovated & hopefully when we rip up our carpet the floorboards are the same (perfect) ones that we have in our family room.
We are getting a new fence down one side of the house and then paint the outside of the house & Taylor & our bedrooms AND THEN hopefully, put the house on the market!!!!!!!!!!!!! fingers crossed.... hopefully....
i just can't believe that we are finally getting the boys b/r done!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And i think i over did it a bit today. I moved the computer & desk (big timber desk) out of the lounge room and into our family room today, big job (& dusty too, my gosh ) and then felt really off.. So went and lied in a warm bath for about an hour..
Think i'll have a day at home tomorrow and get some more clearing & clean out done, bit by bit, while i have the kids at home with me..

ok, rave over with.. Just had to share it, i am so excited i can't believe that it is FINALLY happening!!!

19wks 5 days

2007-09-28T22:27:00.000+10:00

---------arm & hand ------------------------hand up to his/her face

waving hello

-----------leg & foot ----------------------------- 2 feet

-----------------face ---------------------------- 2 feet

foot

-------face (yawning)---------------------- arm & giving the thumbs up..

--------------------------------------------- leg & foot

2 legs

2007-07-12T22:45:00.000+10:00

Oh, the post under the this on, titled 'still here', i found in my drafts box here..
so i thought i would post it anyhow.. I must of been online the day after the 'big storm'..
obviouslly ive tried to post some photos, but they haven't worked...
when im more awake, hopefully soon. i'll blog more about 'that weekend' and share some photos...

off to bed i trot...
:o)

Bad blogger...

2007-07-12T22:34:00.000+10:00

Yes i have been a very bad blogger and haven't been in here for ages..

not only are we getting the house all ready for some major renovations and repairs (due to the June Long weekend storm, which im yet to blog about) we are also very excited to announce..............

Im pregnant..............

Yes, baby no. 4 is on his/her way..
only 9wks today, but everything is up in the air at the moment.. well in a good way, but just a hectic way too.. lol

i am really tired at the moment (& still suffering from morning sickness) so i'll have to go, but i'll try not be a bad blogger from now on and keep this place up to date with all thats happening with the renos, the move and the baby of course...

:o)

Still here....

2007-06-09T22:35:00.000+10:00

Well after such torential rain for the past 48hrs we are still here.. We thought we were going to have to get the Ark out, but thankfully things have started to ease off now.

But it sure was scary...

this photo i have 'borrowed' off the Newcastle ABC website.. It doesn't state where its at, but it could so easily be around here..

after getting some groceries this morning (incase we need to stock the Ark) and before any more rain trapped us, i did a quick whizz past the local park down the road..
this part is EXTREMELY popular. It is just a hollow inbetween 2 towns, but the coucil finally did something worthwhile a couple of years ago and fixed all the drainage, made new ponds, put in bbq area's, toilets and an excellent park area for the kids. Also they put a walkway around the whole thing, that is really popular with walkers (me being one of those!!!)
SO, we were saying last night, how we wondered how it faired with the extreme heavy rain, as we haven't had anything like this in years & years...

back from the unknown...

2007-05-28T23:19:00.000+10:00

Well today i had to go through 1000's & 1000's of files all stored in the back docks of my new computer to find an important address. And guess what i found while there??????????

Here.............

lol
so, just thought i'd post in here again and see how things go...
i might have a go at updating this better now that i am back online as there just seems to be so much (even more) things going on around here that it is a good place to vent...

Now that we are back in the land of the Wide World of Web, i should be able to do some updating, but DON'T hold me to it... :o)

ok, now that i have found here, i have to go, i have to go to bed...
:o)

its so heartbreaking...

2007-02-07T10:34:00.000+11:00

i have been lurking a bit on the Photography boards over at EB and some of the girls there are members at another forum as well..
They were telling us about the poor little girl that passed away on Monday after fighting for her life for 2 days. She had accidently locked herself in her parents car and no one could find her for half an hour. What was 36 degrees outside that day, was 60 degrees inside the car...
My heart just breaks when hearing/seeing stories like this..
I just can't imagine what her parents & family must be going through...

Here is a bit of a story from a family friend....

The above banner is courtesy of Carrie Young....
My colleague and amazing photographer Sheye Rosemeyer, lost her 3 year old daughter last night. It was a horrible tragic accident. She got locked in the family's black car which was parked outside in the full 36 degree sun and no one could find her for half an hour of panic stricken terror. The grandparents live next door and it is normal for the kids to flit between their house and home. Sheye said that Ava was being mischeivious as little kids are...and told Grandad she was going home but really she got in the car. Mom & Dad thought she was at Grandad's, he thought she was at home and by the time she was discovered she had been in a 60 degree car for too long. She fought bravely for two days in an induced coma but lost her battle last night. I can't even imagine the horror that family is feeling right now and their despair. The worst of it is, this is the fourth child this month in Australia. So please, hold your kids a little closer and tighter today and then take them outside and teach them to blow the car horn...hard and long if they are ever stuck in one. Sheye said she could go over the what ifs forever but the reality is, she can't take the last 72 hours back, all she can do is say to other parents, please teach your little one's to not play in cars, always lock the doors when you get out and show them where the horn is.

Please give your loved ones that extra special hug & kiss every moment you see them....xx

back to school

2007-02-01T21:11:00.000+11:00

Well, Tuesday the kids went back to school...

how exciting it all was too... Daniel cried he didnt want to get Miss Higson and Taylor was hoping she didn't get a male teacher!!!
Well, just like last years hopes for who we got & didn't get and then all our worse wishes came true, this year, EXACTLY the same!!!!!

I was a bit worried about Daniel as he really really didn't want Miss H and then he did, but when i picked him up in the afternoon, he said she was great....

Taylor didn't have Mr. Sergon until the next day and she said, HE IS FANTASTIC, HE IS SOOOOOOOO COOL.... He is the best teacher there, so she says..

So it all worked out great in the end.

Both the kids didn't get any of there immediate friends in there class though, but i say thank goodness for that....

Taylor did great last year in the 'special class' and in saying that, i don't mean 'special'. I mean she was picked out year 3 to go into a year 4 class cause she is a smart cookie. So now that she has done all year 4 work last year and going into Year 4 this year will be interesting to see how things work and what sort of work she will do...

Dan did great last year, but he has too many fans.. You know how it is being SOOOOOOOO popular and all with the opposite sex you just can't help these things... lol Well not this year buddy, he has to tell the chicks to lay off a bit and put that little bit extra work in..

Not wanting to 'compare' the 2, but with Taylor being way off the charts last year doing the Basic Skills Test, it will be interesting to see how Dan goes with it this year...

Jordan started back at Pre-school this year. They do the first day in 2 shifts and this being his second year there, he got the 2nd shift. Which was just perfect as we could take Tay & Dan to school and then have time to spend with Jordan. It was going to be a bit of a worry with Tom (his bestest mate) not being there this year, but thankfully we saw him in the morning at the 'big school' and he was fine with that...

There was only a hand full of kids at pre-school when we got there (he started at 12.30pm) and only 3 other boys that he knew from last year... Riley being one of them and he was happy with that....

Now he doesn't go back till Monday next week, but thankfully he loves school too and enjoys he's 2 days at pre-school...

I can't believe my baby will be at big school next year, i am SO not looking forward to that...

Dancing starts next week..

as much as im looking forward to the kids getting back into some moving stuff and my dancing too, im not too keen to start the whole running around & $$$ side of it...

Taylor is starting guitar lessons on Tuesday, so thats an extra thing to run around too. Thankfully we was able (thanks Dad) to find someone in Kurri. She has given up Tap this year, but is still doing Jazz...

We have our timetable all worked out, but just have to wait for Soccer & Netball to start and then try & slot them in too....

Monday, Daniel, Jordan & I took Mum to Sydney to see her Dr.

I was worried about the trip home, because if he hadn't of gave mum good news she would of killed him.. But thankfully, he is happy with how her hand/wrist is going and she is now allowed to drive. THANK GOODNESS!!!!!!!!! she has been really depressed lately (more than usual) cause of her wrist.. He doesn't want to see her for 6mths now, so thats good...

The boys LOVED there visit to the big city.. Jordan though the Monorail was just the best and he couldn't get over how big CentrePoint was, it frightened him a bit when he first looked up at it from standing RIGHT underneath it when we got off the monorail..

He also thought it was great when we went over the Harbour Bridge...

Australia Day..

2007-01-26T17:31:00.000+11:00

Love it or Leave it....

as John Laws would say... :o)

Lets all see the flags flying high on our beautiful Australian soil for Australia day....
Happy Australian Day to everyone, i hope everyone is out enjoying themselves and celebrating what is very important to us all..
me... im at work... Doing the right thing by little Johnny and putting in the hard yard to make ends meet for my family... I know, don't get me started on that A-hole, isn't he just a treasure, NOT!!!!!!!!!

i don't mind being at work today, Friday's are pretty good around here, its air-conditioned (its bloody hot outside) and the pay rate is double & a half... Its good to make up some extra cash while i can... lol ;o)

School starts back on Tuesday and i still have a few things to get yet..
Im taking mum to Sydney on Monday (with the kids too, yes, im insane.. lol) and dancing starts in just over a weeks time, so there goes ANY money i'd hoped for... lol
Oh & soccer rego is next weekend too and without a doubt, netball rego will be the weekend after... Woohoooo the joys of parent hood!!!!!!

Gosh, no idea where that little rant came from...

Happy Australia day to everyone.....

Happy Birthday Dan...xx

2007-01-24T23:46:00.000+11:00

Happy birthday to my big boy, who turned 8 on Monday... (22nd Jan)

I can't believe he is 8 already. Like any mum says, it only seems like yesterday they were just born....

the top photo is just a group of photos i put together last year to celebrate his birthday..
here is a photo i took of him on his birthday...

we had the Elsley girls stay over for the day, so when we got organised, we all headed into Newcastle to the beach for a while. After about an hour swimming & exploring in the rock pool, we then went & grabbed some Macca's and sat at Shortland Lawn for lunch and then a bit of a play on the equipment.. It was pretty hot though (not as hot as Sunday or Saturday). We then headed home and stopped off at Uma's (my mums) for a swim before going home to see family for the birthday boy....

bbl with more photos... :o)

Happy Birthday Dan..

2007-01-15T13:29:00.000+11:00

ok, i need some good news now, sorry....

Bec's home..... yay

Here's a message from Bec (from over at our mums group..)

Thank you all for your well wishes and texts! I got home last night and it was so hard to leave my precious girls behind - lots of tears. But I have just had the call to say they're on their way to North West which is closer to home, so we're about to go and meet them and say hi again! I can't believe how well they're doing! Aside from some bradychardias (heart rate falling below 90bpm) and desats (oxygen level falling) they have had no setbacks at all. They are still tube fed and have monitors attached all over, but they are off all IVs and in open cots just like normal little babies!

Katie is doing very well at her b/f attempts, but Georgia is a little bit smaller and gets tired more quickly. As at yesterday Katie was 1800g (down from 1960g) and Georgia was 1738g (down from 1875). They are so tiny but so perfect. I'll have to ring around and get some more pics sent through, then I'll pop them all on here.

Oops my buzzer has just gone off so it's time to pump the boobies again lol, then we're off to the hospital, but I'll be back later to fill you in on my exciting week!

Bye for now!

Bec

2007-01-15T12:58:00.000+11:00

we had some sad news last night....

Stephen's sister passed away last night...
She was only 52 and only discovered she had cancer (in her spine) in October last year.

Apparently she had been sick for a while and kept going to her dr with the ongoing problem, he just passed it off as the flu and did nothing more about it.
She then came over here for a visit/holiday, she lives in Kalgoolie. When she arrived here she had to go to the dr's again as she was still terribly sick..
The dr. here sent her straight off to specialist, which usually takes a month or 2 to get into to have some thourough tests done.
It was then & there they discovered she had cancer in her spine and it looked like it was spreading.
This was in October. She stayed here for a longer stay, to have some more tests done at the Mater Oncology Unit and to spend some more time with her family (2x sisters, 2x brothers and both her parents). She said all her goodbyes and then flew home to start her treatment.
Just after Christmas things were going so well..
We were told only 2 weeks ago that she had been given 3mths to live and she was told that 6wks ago.
David & the girls (his 2 sisters) were flying out on the 22nd to be with her, then last Thursday she had taken a turn for the worse and the family was called for sooner.
David flew out on the Friday and the girls were to fly out on the Monday (today).
Sadly, we got the call late yesterday afternoon to say that she had given up the fight and had passed away... With her husband David, her only child Jasmine and her brother by her side.
She is at peace now from her aching body, but her family are left in devestation... It is such a sad trageidy...
It is very sad too to think the girls didn't make it over in time to see Rebecca before she did pass away...

Stephen isnt holding up too well mum said. He went through a tragedy many years ago when he was in a car accident when he was 17 with his family and his sister was killed. That hit him really hard and he never really got over the death of her. So now for this to happen, it has hit him really hard.. He said this morning, last night was the hardest thing he has ever had to do and that was to tell his parents, there daughter had passed away...

Im sorry i have posted such sad news...
give your loved ones a big hug and take care..............xx

what a mess....

2007-01-15T12:44:00.000+11:00

its amazing the amount of *stuff* that is accumulated over 10yrs...
We have been in this house for 10yrs on the 2nd of May this year.
Ever time i have a decent amount of holidays at one time (ie. Mat. Leave or 2-3wks) i promise myself i am going to have a big clean out and throw as much as i can...
And 10yrs on, im still sitting here in a bomb site.....

Without sounding like a grommet, we do have a reasonably nice house, but we have just out-grown it. It is/would be fine for 2 children (or 1 child and 1 hobbyist) but not 3 children & one 'hoarder'/hobbyist...
We lack storage space here BIG TIME... Cause the boys share a room and it happens to be the biggest room in the house and the least visible (to visitors) it seems to cope a lot of the 'storage' (ie. boxes ontop of the cupboards)...
Having 2 boys in the one room is not my favourite thing., having 2 or more kids in the one room is not my favourite thing... I know lots of millions of people do it, but i just get so erked about it.. MAYBE, if (when) the room gets done up and is more space efficient it might be better, but there is just SOOOOOOOO much *stuff* in that room, & it annoys me...

Im a bit of a shop-a-holic (hence the hoarder i suppose..lol.) and esp. love buying the kids new clothes all the time.. I am always ripped off by my mum & friends that my kids have more clothes than Target... I will admit this now, i have just thrown out 12 bags of clothes just from the boys room AND i still don't have enough room for what they have left... *ok, hanging my head in shame*

Ok, i should get a move on and finish doing what i was doing... i keep procrastinating cause it is driving me up the wall.. I WANT A NEW HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!! boo hoo!!!! lol

Dan is having a party on Saturday, even though it is at mums for the afternoon & evening, its a pool party. The kids are then coming back here for the sleepover... EEKK!!!!!
best get finished with the cleaning.....

See ya later...
-if i come back out of hiding after this-

ive changed..

2007-01-12T00:06:00.000+11:00

oh gosh i was so nervous, but i decided i needed a change...
i have been wanting to do this for ages but was too scared to do it...
I had a 'different' template picked out, but it was a downloaded one and i certainly don't have a clue how to do that...

i have been promising myself that one of my NYR's was to be in bed before 11pm every night... In the eleven days we have had of 2007, i haven't been to bed before midnight yet!!!!! ooppps

so, off to bed i go now @ 12.07pm..
goodnight..

There here...

2007-01-11T21:42:00.000+11:00

Katie & Georgia

are here.

Wednesday 10th of January 2007

@ 3.30am

breathing unaided and doing well

Georgia was 1875g and Katie was 1960gs.

Georgia

Katie

A HUGE *congrats* to Bec, Paul, Ebony & Ashlyn..

They truly are beautiful Bec... :o)

OMG, ive just had a text message......

2007-01-08T23:39:00.000+11:00

@ 11.19pm (my time!!!)

In hospital prem labour
32.4w. Trying drugs to stop
it but not working yet.
Will update soon.

please everyone keep your fingers & toes crossed that everything goes well.....
i'll keep you updated....

Happy New Year...xx

2007-01-01T19:38:00.000+11:00

My New Year's Resolutions....

Its not what happens between Christmas & New Years,

but what happens between New Years & Christmas.....

(i said this last year and im still here... .lol.)

i must stop eating
i must have earlier nights
i must exercise more
i must stop procrastinating
i must save more money
i must spend more time (at) on the house

well i can dream can't i??...... lol

what the???

2006-12-31T15:51:00.000+11:00

There is Easter Eggs EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is just so not right!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!

2006-12-29T17:38:00.000+11:00

Look what my mum bought me today (plus a lens :o) )!!!!!!!!
i am totally gobsmacked!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know whether to laugh, cry or be sick!!!!!!! WELL, actually, ive done all 3. i just can't believe that not only am i the proud owner of a digital SLR, BUT that my mum bought it for me... Is she a GREAT woman or what!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE SURE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, i just have to learn how to use it.................................. lol
PLEASE HELP, anyone.. i have no idea what im doing.... lol

Only 361 sleeps till we do it all again.....

2006-12-28T13:53:00.000+11:00

Before Santa arrived........

After Santa arrived.....

This is just Santa pressies, i have NO idea where i am going to put all this stuff... We (badly) need a new house just to put the new presents....

This was the 2nd biggest present of the day and a great story to go with it..
All Taylor wanted for Christmas was a guitar, she had told EVERYONE that she wanted one and had wrote a letter to Santa asking for just that...
when all the presents had been opened Christmas morning, from mum & dad & Santa, there was no guitar to be found.. The boys had received the presents they had asked Santa for, but poor heart broken Taylor didn't get her longed for guitar...
THEN, my Grandmother, Barr as they call her, arrived for Christmas breakfast with presents for the kids. There was a great big box, an odd shaped box too with Taylor's name on it.. She opened it up and OH BOY what a HUGE smile was on her face.. There it was, THE guitar 'and a real one too' and it was PINK!!!!!!!! oh gosh it bought tears to my eyes to see the smile on her face.... Now, just to learn how to play it.. OH to get the plaster off first and then learn how to play it... lol

Here's my EXCELLENT new bbq that mum & Stephen bought for Brendan & I, aren't we just the luckiest??!!!!!!!!
it is so excellent, never in my wildest dreams did i ever imagine getting so extravagant for Christmas....
we used it for the first time last night (after a trip into Bunnings to buy a new gas bottle) and had the yummiest dinner.. Chicken kebabs, corn, steak, onion, sausages, potato chips...
Im in the middle of cooking a baked dinner on it now, YUMMOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Brendan gave me $400 (OMG!!) for Christmas. He wanted to buy me PhotoShop for my computer but they had sold out when he went to get it (christmas eve eve mind you!!!)... So he gave me the money to buy it myself... I tell you what, the money is burning a hole in my wallet pretty fast... I don't know what to buy with it really though.. I want a tripod for my camera, i badly want PhotoShop and i really want one of my photos enlarged really big (if i know how to do it??) and framed............
any hints, tips or ideas anyone?????????????

i wish i had the confidence to change this blogger, its boring me with the colours now...

oh well...
so what else was scored here for Christmas....

The kids scored a GREAT present from Mum & Stephen, which they recieved as a gift for the 3 of them............ a dvd player for the car with TWO screens... they go on the back of the seats and they can blissfully watch telly while were driving along........
we soon discovered though, its very annoying for us in the front to have to 'listen' to the telly and not being able to see it & it annoying the radio listening... SO, when we went to Bunnings yesterday, i stopped in at Dick Smith's and bought THREE headphones.... GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Taylor & Dan both scored mp3 players from Santa, so we had to fill them straight away. Taylor got a stereo to use her mp3 with, an art set, the much wanted Vollies, some dirt LOL & seeds from her vegie garden, a couple of dvd's, hot rollers, a heap of books from Grandad & Maxine oh & a bottle of Brittany Spears perfume, of course the guitar from Barr (my grandma), a toe ring & make up from Aunty Shannon & Uncle Brett, clothes, makeup & lots of little things from Nanna & Pop...

Dan got a big remote control car, an aquarium, lego, tennis thingy (0n a pole) set, lava light, another remote control car from Barr, and another one from Nanna & Pop with an electic (toy) guitar, clothes, from Grandad & Max some 'men's' perfume stuff and deoderant & hair stuff and a skateboard & thongs from Shan & Brett...

Jordan got his much loved Shake & Go Car's Race Track, a etcha sketch thingy, Thomas the Tank train set, the bestest Mini Car, Car's electric toothbrush, mini Semi Trailer, (YEP, he LOVES cars), from Nanna & Pop a remote control Ford, an electric (toy) guitar, clothes, the Car's dvd & a toy car from Grandad & max, a remote control car from Barr, a boogie board from Uma & Poppy, and a mini skateboard & a shirt from Shan & Brett...

Yep, the kids did excellent this year... im pretty sure i have forgotten most of the stuff.. i usually write things down (cause i have a bad memory) but i didn't get time to this year as there was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much toys to get through and went through super quickly!!!!

I scored a Red Door perfume set, a braclet, a diary OF COURSE my excellent bbq & my cash AND a Robbie Williams dvd which is EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH gosh, i had heaps more i wanted to say, but for the life of me i can't remember now...
im finally going to post this now, its time to move on from this day... Count down the days, what's left of them, till the new year and then onto the New Year's Resolutions.... ooopppps, not looking forward to that..... lol

I hope everyone had a great Christmas..............
take care.................xx

Merry Christmas...

2006-12-24T14:46:00.000+11:00

From my family to your's...

A very Merry Christmas

and a

Happy New Year...xx

omg, look at this.........

2006-12-20T22:52:00.000+11:00

Isnt that a beautiful picture.....

How far do you think she is??? 40+ weeks????????????

nope..........

Try, 30wks........

This is one of my friends, Bec from Qld and she is expecting twins.........

She is the most beautiful'est (isn't that a great word) person. She is the MOST maternal person i have ever met. She has 2 beautiful little girls already and is expecting TWO more little girls....

She is also a HUGE Robbie fan and took the girls (the twins, lol) to the Robbie concert last Wednesday night and danced the whole night she said... The girls just loved it... lol But were buggered the next day.....

Here's the girl's photos....

Twin A Twin B

Ok, lots (of boring stuff) to talk about, but this deserves a post on its own, that's for sure...
I'll be back as soon as for a more of an up-date....
take care, only FIVE more sleeps to go............xx

Spotted at Robbie...

2006-12-14T23:57:00.000+11:00

This was on the Sony Ericsson website, (but now its not :o( )...
The guys from SE were going around taking photos of everyone in the line up waiting for Robbie, so we had our mugs taken for the fun of it.....

L to R: Brett (my BIL), Kathleen (my best friend), ooooh scary Me, & Shannon (my SIL)...

Robbie, Robbie, Robbie............

2006-12-11T16:43:00.000+11:00

OMG

the BEST show i have EVER seen in my life.........

i can not begin to tell you how excellent it was, as it was extremely brillian!!!!!

These photos were taken on my SIL's mobile, were in the crowd, 3 ROWS FROM THE FRONT, waiting for Robbie to come out...

my only pissed off thing is.........

my arm was shitting me all night AND i didn't take my camera....

i know, i know how stupid... but i was really worried about losing it, getting it taken off me (if you weren't allowed to have them there) or it getting broken, so i didn't bother... But i cried when i got there and saw EVERYONE had one.. I could of taken both my camera and my new u-buit video camera, but i didn't... So lets not mention it again, as im VERY pissed off with myself.....

Like i said, we were only 3 rows back from the fence at the front, so i was only about max. 2mtrs away from us. It was so unreal & hard to believe that we could actually see him that close, it was like, 'OMG that's Robbie Williams RIGHT THERE in front of us'....

I can still see him just infront of me know as i have embedded that imagine into my mind, woohoo... But it is just so sad that you can't bottle that moment and replay it and replay it over & over again OR even show it off to others...

I so wish i had money, as i'b be on the first flight to Brisbane today to go and see both shows there...

BBS

Im so EXCITED.........

2006-12-09T10:01:00.000+11:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!
ONE more sleep to go, i cant believe it...
i have been counting down this day for the past 160 something days and now its here...
i was in bed all day yesterday, as i had the dreaded vomiting & diarrhoea for 12hrs straight, yuck. But thankgod ive woke up this morning and its all gone, so did 2kgs yahooo..... not a fun way to lose it though!!!!!
but i was so worried yesterday that i was going to feel like crap for the next few days and that meant tomorrow too..
BUT, ive work up this morning and feeling great....
We are getting picked up by Stephen on the Club's Courtesy bus at 7.15am. We'll then pick the Hall's & the Gordon's up and head on down to Newcastle train station.. Were catching the 8.30am train and it should arrive into Central at 11.09am..
We'll then go and check our stuff into the Royal Exhibition Hotel. Then go and have some lunch, back to our rooms, get organised and then head on over to the Stadium!!!!!!!!!
Im still not sure what to wear, as its suppose to be a warm day AND we'll be on our feet ALL DAY, cause we are right up the front (think, mosh pit), gates open at 4pm, Support band at 6.30pm, Robbie's soundcheck at 7.30pm and then ROBBIE at 9pm...
Its going to be a longggggggg day/night, but all so worth it!!!!!!!!!!
Brendan & Rols are going to be hanging out around the pub waiting for us, so after the concert we'll meet up with them and im sure to them, bore them with all the great things that we saw & heard...
I just can't wait.................... ONE more sleep to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My other exciting news is......................
Im doing 2 photography classes with the great Rachel Greig...... I so can't wait...
Im going to have to get a new ticker to count it down, im that excited..
and it seems ages away... Its not till the 18th of February 2007, but i guess that wont take too long to come around....

Im off to work now to do a couple of things i was suppose to do yesterday at work, but was in bed all day.. no that's a lie, i was mostly in the toilet and then went to the lounge.......
Apparently my 'camera' that i won arrived yesterday, so im hanging out to go and pick it up...
When i get back i'll see if i can show it off....
Have a great weekend, i know i will (well i hope i do!!!)....
see ya...............xx

its just another Thursday....

2006-12-07T15:00:00.000+11:00

i have had my one & only peaceful day at home today and what do i decide to do, NOTHING!!!!!!!!!
in theory that sounds fantastic, but in reality it is so very wrong!!!!
i have so much to do around here and i just haven't done a thing...
My arm is really killing me today, do you think that is a good excuse for not doing anything... its not really an excuse, it is the truth....

Well only 3 more sleeps till ROBBIE!!!!!!!!!!! wooohooo, can't wait...

Taylor is singing with the choir at the Masonic Village's Carols By Candlelight tonight.. What a long (& hot) night it's going to be.. But it will be good to see her sing again...

Ooopppps, i best go.. Ive got a friend coming over this arvo for a photo shoot, i best get my camera ready...

take care, with love from the big whinger here..........xx

speaking of arms....

2006-12-06T20:28:00.000+11:00

Mine is still shitting me, heaps...

& Mum went back to work today...

bbl

Here's our broken arm....

2006-12-05T20:20:00.000+11:00

This is Taylor with her back slabe on (above)...

Which she got put on last Tuesday, until she had to see her own Dr. yesterday and wait for the swelling to go down...

Then se was able to go and get her plaster put on, which we paid extra for so we could get a fibreglass cast, which is waterproof...

Could you imagine Taylor NOT being able to go swimming.??!!! OMG!!!!!!!

This is a girl that goes swimming in winter...

She was after a light blue colour, but the only choices they had available yesterday was, white, black or purple...

The black would of been nice, but too hot in summer she thought, so it was definately the purple on....

Jordan scratched his arm big time just late this afternoon and the only thing that would make it better was a bandage. (which wasn't a bad idea, as it was too big for a bandaide)..

Here he is with Dan looking after him and him resting it, while watching telly...

grrrrr

2006-12-04T22:33:00.001+11:00

i change one little thing and the whole thing decides to crap itself and not do or look how it SHOULD!!!!!!!!!!!!

im going away to hide & sulk now......
:o(

OMG!!!!!!!

2006-11-29T13:33:00.000+11:00

im going to burst and must just tell someone AND ANYONE!!!!!!!!

i just got an email from Channel 10 news, saying that they are going to use my photo that i sent in, on the weather TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! omg, i can't believe it.. i know its probably not that much of a biggy, but i am just so excited....
Im now in the running to win a camera from Harvey Norman, how cool that would be if i could win that too.. Knowing my bad luck lately though, im not holding my breath.. lol
here's the photo that they are using...

i wish i had of got more notice though, so i could tell EVERYONE... lol...
but that's ok, im just so happy about the whole thing...

here's the email....
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Hi Peta,

thank you for sending in your cute snail/hail photo to Tim's Weather. We will be using the photo in the weather tonight. Tim usually shows his photo in the first weather break at 5.20pm so stay tuned.

You will be in the running to win a camera from Harvey Norman.

Once again, thanks for taking the time to send in your photo.

kind regards

Janet Thomas
NewsNetwork Ten

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

ok, i have to go, see ya........xx

it comes in three's.....

2006-11-28T22:13:00.000+11:00

Can somebody please tell me when & where that Chinaman was when i hit him and did i back over him aswell????

Just after having lunch at work today i got a phone call from the school..
Ah-oh, which one is sick????
"hello Mrs. Eyeington, im just ring to say that Taylor has had a fall at school today and she has hurt her arm. Im not saying its broken or anything, but it is very swollen and that doesn't look good"...
oh geee, ta...
I got up to the school and she was sitting waiting for me with an ice pack on it, & she was crying..
We went up to the hospital and we were pretty lucky & got seen to straight away. She had it x-rayed straight away and sure as, its broken...
Just a little break in her bone, about an inch/inch&half up from her wrist..
She has a 'Greenstick Fracture' (An incomplete fracture seen in children where only one side of the bone is broken)

They have half casted it (back slabbed it) & wrapped it..
We have to go and see our own Dr. on Monday, when the swelling has gone down and then she has to have a full plaster cast put on it...

Poor thing..
i know how she feels with the pain coming (stronger) and going and being helpless with it.. She is lucky in one way though, that she has done it to her left hand and she is right handed. Unlike Mum & I who have both hurt our dominant arms. My right and mum's left...

Even though she is in some pain it is still a bit of an adventure for her.
She can't wait to tell everyone at school and she can't wait to get her full cast on & show it off and get it all signed by her friends... She is hoping she can get a pretty blue one..
With her being such a water baby and it being summer now, im hoping to see about getting a fibreglass (water proof) cast put on it. Then that way she can still go swimming and doesn't have to miss out on all the fun... (Plus it will make it so much easier in the shower)

Im staying home with her tomorrow, so i'll see how she is going then to see if she'll let me take a photo of it or not...
take care.........xx

it's beginning to look alot like.........

2006-11-26T22:27:00.000+11:00

a nothing day today..

2006-11-26T16:54:00.000+11:00

Brendan has gone away again today...
To Sydney for a training course with Chappy...
There motel they are staying in is also where the course is.. It goes from 8.30am to 4.00pm tomorrow (monday) and Tuesday.. Then they'll head back home..
Not a long time away, but it just seems a bit weird as he was away all last week too...

Yes, my arm is still driving me up the wall....

im hoping to do the kids Christmas Photo shoot later, wish me luck that we get it done & out the road AND they co-operate..... huh!!!!!

see ya later...
:o)

LOOK

2006-11-23T21:41:00.000+11:00

WHAT arrived today.....

WOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-23T18:05:00.000+11:00

Osca buggered after reading his 'That's Life' magazine...

2006-11-23T17:58:00.000+11:00

~ Colour ~

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ive 'borrowed' this off Kathyrn, i hope she doesn't mind.??
but it looked like a good one to try out....
:o)

[RED ]
1. Closest red thing to you? a red flower, for my hair
2. Has anyone ever cheated on you in a relationship? i don't know, hope not????
3. Last thing to make you angry? oh were do i start ????? too many atm sorry...
4. Are you a fan of romance? Sure am
5. Have you ever been in love? Sure have
6. Do you have a temper? sadly, i do

[ GREEN ]
1. Closest green thing to you? a chunky green bangle
2. Do you care about the environment? sure do
3. Are you jealous of anyone right now? yeah probably, well yes i know i would be/am
4. Are you a lucky person? no, definately not...
5. Do you always want what you can't have? FOR SURE
6. Are you Irish? ummm no, sorry

[ PURPLE ]
1. Last purple thing you saw? a pair of my pj's i washed yesterday (that's all i can think of)
2. Like being treated to expensive things? oh of course, who wouldn't??!! lol!!
3. Do you like mysterious things? no, and i hate surprises
4. Favorite type of chocolate? anything with MINT
5. Ever met any royalty? no, but i did see Princess Dianna & Charles at Maitland Town Hall many moons ago!!!!!!!!
6. Are you creative? ummm, i think so, but i am very good at being lazy... :o)
7. Are you lonely? yes

[ BLUE ]
1. Closest blue thing to you? the little desktop bar at the bottom of the screen?? oh and my pj's... :o) (yes it is 12midday, ooppss)
2. Are you good at calming people down? i think so
3. Do you like the ocean? yes, love the beach
4. What was the last thing that made you cry? last night, my arm was killing me (i cry ALOT though)
5. Are you a logical thinker? ummm, sometimes
6. Can you sleep easily? DEFINATLEY, i LOVE my sleep
7. Do you prefer the beach or the woods? the beach, but the woods is nice too...

[ YELLOW ]
1. Closest yellow thing to you? Jordan's little seat he's sitting on playing the playstation
2. The happiest time(s) of your life? having my children (not he labour/pain though), doing things with my family, my wedding day, seeing & hearing my kids laugh....
3. Favorite holiday? our 3wk trip to Qld, just the 5 of us in Sept. 2004
4. Are you a coward? YES, hate spiders, zero pain tollerance & HATE needles....
5. Do you burn or tan? tan (when i see the sun that is.. lol )
6. Do you want children? I already have 3 beautiful children (but wouldn't say no to more ;o) )
7. What makes you happy? family, friends, shopping, socialising, (my computer), lots of things......

[ PINK ]
1. Closest pink thing to you? taylor's pink shoes next to me on the floor
2. Do you like sweet things? SILLY question, of course isn't it obvious!!!!!!!!!
3. Like play-fighting? ummm?? no??
4. Are you sensitive? definately
5. Do you like punk music? did you say PINK, of course check out my ticker at the bottom of the page... lol
6. What is your favorite flower? gerbra, frangipanni, gardenia
7. Does someone have a crush on you? i'd doubt it!!!!!

[ ORANGE ]
1. Closest orange thing to you? i can't see any orange atm???
2. Do you like to burn things? yes, i LOVE candles
3. Dress up for Halloween? def. no.. its not our holiday
4. Are you usually a warm-hearted person? yes
5. Do you prefer the single life or the security of a relationship? i love my husband & being a family, but it is nice when he goes away for a couple of days for work.. sound like a bad wife don't i??!!!! ooopppps sorry....
6. What would your super power be? besides looking at the future lotto draw?? energy, to have the power of speed so i don't feel tired & slow all the time....

[WHITE]
1. Closest white thing to you? my drink coaster next to my keyboard
2. Would you say you're innocent? ummm no
3. Always try to keep the peace? most of the time
4. How do you imagine your wedding? already had it and loved it, wouldn't change a think..
5. Do you like to play in the snow? cause i don't see it that much, i would say yes...
6. Are you afraid of going to the doctors or dentist? hate the dentist, i put off going to the doctors though and then get into trouble cause ive left it to the last min...

[ BLACK ]
1. Closest black thing to you? keyboard keys & mouse
2. Ever enjoy hurting people? NO
3. Are you sophisticated or silly? silly
4. Do you have a lot of secrets? ummm yes...
5. What is your favorite color(s)? red
6. Does the color you wear affect your mood? no not really

Thanks Kathryn, this was a great one - so much fun - and so 'colourful'
:o)

its bloody 41degrees here today....

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What is it with this weather lately??!!!!

How weird is the weather where you are??? It really SUCKS here at the moment...
last Thursday we had to go to Newcastle to see Taylor sing.
i wore 2 singlets, my jeans a jumper and dug out my really big knee length jacket and it was still
cold & miserable and raining...
Today, its 41 degrees', the air-con is blasting (+ my other one shit itself, boohoo!!!!!!!!)
and i can't get cool?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh this weather is a right royal pain in the big butt!!!!!

I had my bone scan yesterday, gosh it seemed to take ages..
I arrived there at 8.35am, got called in at 9.25am, had my needle in the top of my left hand,
yes i did cry and YES i am a sook..
Had the scan done on both my arms, then one on each arm.
Went away for 2.5hrs.
went back and had to have the same scans done again. (this time the dye had gone through)
this hurt a bit though, cause i had to keep still for 10mins each time and my arm just ached HEAPS...
went & had lunch with mum & Stephen and then went back for my scans 1.5hrs later..
Got a pathetic little picture for $401.30...

My Dr. rang this morning, she said i have a Contusion of the bone. (Which really is just a bruise.. )
She said i have a major bruise & swelling in & around my bone and to treat it like a fracture and
keep it in the sling... She said it will take a while to heal and no wonder it hurts......
I then got off the phone not thinking and didn't think to ask any questions...
So im not real sure how long it will take to heal, how it will (like can or should i be doing things)
or even how long it has to be in the sling for????? hopeless i am...

I went to work today but couldn't do a thing, it was a real pain in the butt...
Getting paid to do nothing is good, but it is a pain & a really long dragged out day.
And im sick of having to rely on people for lifts, esp. with Brendan away, so im going
to drive tomorrow, bugger it...

Brendan is away for a week for work this week.
It has been bad timing cause of my stupid arm and i do miss him, but it is still nice to
have a quiet time... lol
We went to a Christmas party on Saturday night, got home at 12.15am, got into bed around 12.35ish and his mobile rang at 12.45am.. He then didn't get home till 7am.. He had 3 nights like that last week, and they were after full days of work too...
He will get home on Friday afternoon, just in time for the 2 of us to go out for his work Christmas party. He then has to work on Saturday and then off on Sunday afternoon to Sydney till Wednesday for a training course for work...
It is nothing for him to work a 100hr week, poor thing...

Christmas shopping.. I haven't even started yet..
Every day that goes by i stress that little bit more knowing it is getting closer and closer and i haven't done a thing about it yet...
I really don't enjoy this time of the year, it seems to be getting more & more expensive
each year...
One good thing about it is i know what im getting off my mum & Stephen... A new BBQ... i CAN'T wait!!!!!!!!
i was going to get one from Chrisco (like i got my great new Dyson vacuum the other week) or something like that for next Christmas, but my mum & Stephen went out yesterday (while i was having my bone scan done) and bought me a excellent looking 4 burner one.. i am hanging out to cook some baked dinners... lol yummo

take care & stay safe..... xx

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P.s...

Does anyone have any advice on a great SLR camera???
i 'might' be able to 'purchase' one for work and i am after some info. on them..

What are the best sort to get???

(i might be able to spend up to and around $1600)...

Thanks heaps...

i hate this time of the year &

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i hate my life.....

I know that sounds so wrong & harsh, but this time of the year always depresses me more than usual...

Thats all im going to say about that right now....

Off for a bone scan first thing in the morning, so i best get to bed....
night.....xx

Who knew....

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Im going to see PINK

woohooooo, i can't wait...
May 3rd 2007
Newcastle Entertainment Centre....

WOOHOOOOO

bbl :o)

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And my music isn't playing!!!!!!!!!!!
NOT HAPPY!!!!!!

just another day...

2006-11-14T22:09:00.000+11:00

Nothing much to report here tonight...

My elbow is still KILLING me... i can move it a bit more, but boy does it hurt AND it aches the more i use it..
I had to ring Bronwyn tonight and tell her about it and say i can't play netball tomorrow night!!!! NOT happy!!! :o(
We are going so well too, we haven't lost a game yet... NOT saying they will cause im not there, FAR FROM IT!!!!!!!!! they'll probably play even better...
I just wish i could say at the end of the year when we have won all our games, that i played for every single one.... There goes my 60mins of full on exercise for a Wednesday... :o(

We had a massive wind & rain storm yesterday, it lasted a whole 5-10mins. It was over before it started, but boy was it rough... It was like a mini cyclone had whizzed through here!!!
I was home and heard/saw the whole lot, but somehow i didn't hear our side fence fell over..
i guess the wind & down pour was just too loud...
The fence was old and crappy and only just standing (well propped up) as it was.. We have been here for 9.5yrs and it was crappy then.... lol
So now we have to get some quotes (which i did this arvo) and 'inform' the neighbours and see what our chances are of getting a bit of $$ from them for a new fence...
They should think there lucky in a way though. Cause we have 2 blocks next to us, one being the Servo facing the same way and the other being a house (side ways on the other half of the block) they only have to pay a 1/4 of the price and we have to pay a half..
Oh well, it is benefiting us more than them, lets just hope they come to the party and chip in..

Oh, my payrise got approved last night at the board meeting, so next week, i'll be $2 or $3 an hour richer, wooohoooo!!!!
not sure if its 2 or 3 yet, will just have to wait till next Monday to see...
Julie and I were on our own at work today, so we sat out on the verandah/landing and had our lunch, it was really nice sitting out there. Glad it was a better day today than yesterday though...

I have to work tomorrow night, mid-month pokie clearout & Brendan has to work too. So i'll have to see if mum & stephen will have the kids over night..
Taylor is singing at the Newcastle Uni on Thursday and Mum, Jordan & I were going to go. So i'll only have to get up Thursday morning & go over there, get the kids ready and off to Shortland we'll go... Hopefully it will be a good day...

We have Barr's (my grandmother) Christmas Party on Saturday.. Its at Shannon & Lee's house (at Bellbird) this year.. We haven't been there yet, so it will be good to see there house...
Its usually a hard time trying to get everyone free to have the day together, so im looking forward to catching up with Dad's side of the family... The kids are looking forward to it too..

Ok, that's about it for tonight. My arm is really aching now, so i best get going...
take care.......... xx

Taylor's camp & yes im a bloody idiot..

2006-11-13T10:11:00.000+11:00

Well, on Thursday Taylor had her school camp..

She came home from school as normal and then got ready to go back for camp-out that afternoon..

She had asked Brendan if he'd be a parent helper and help put up tents etc and he said he would stay the night too.. (as they needed 'supervisors' to stay over)..

So at 5pm they were all packed up and ready to head off to school for the night..

I was a little disappointed that i didn't know what was going on or couldn't be there to take photos, but i guess that's just what you have to do..

It didn't worry me Brendan staying over with her, but i just hated not knowing what was going on... lol

I had a lend of Mum & Stephen's car for the night, so i could go up to the school and see what was happening and so i could get to work in the morning..

Even though the kids were sleeping in tents, the parents had to supply there own tents or sleep in there car. So Brendan just folded up our back seats and made a bed for himself in there..

He did park our car under the shelter in the school so that was pretty good...

So at 5pm off we all went to the school..

There were kids everywhere and it was tent city... Im a bloody idiot for not taking a photo of the tent city, grrrr... But by the time we got there Tara, who was the 3rd person sharing a tent with Taylor & Maddy had already got there early and put up the girls tent...

There was probably about 30 tents all up... The school owns them all and it is something that Yr 3 does every year...

Taylor & Maddy picked each other to room with and Tara was 'put' with them.. The girls didn't mind, cause she was alright and she went off & played with her own friends for most of the time..

They played some games and had activities, while some parents cooked the bbq and made dinner..
After they had dinner they got organised for bed, and then went into the school hall and watched a dvd on the big screen..
After the movie they were told they can have 30mins talk & torch time and then lights out..
Taylor said only about 2mins later, one of the 'grumpy' teachers then turned up to the school and said lights out straight away!!!!!!!!!
Brendan went to bed (the car) around 10pm he said, he set his alarm for 3am and got up and did a quick check around the tents. All was fine and back to the car he went...

In the morning the kids were all woke up nice & early (well early for Taylor anyhow).. around 6am.. It was a nice sleep in for Brendan as he always gets up at 4am every morning and heads off to the gym so it was great for him..
They got organised & dressed and headed off for an hours walk....
Came back and had there b'fast and then packed up the tents...
There 2 guys there, 1 from the Country NRL and 1 from the Knights and they did some activities with the kids..
Then around 11am they all got on the bus and headed off to the local pool for 2hrs..
When they came back to school they had some pizza, drinks & lollies, had a short play in the playground and then went & rested in the school hall for another dvd...

That morning, i had mums car, i took Dan to school. I waved to Tay as she was playing and Brendan was just leaving the school.. He said it was a pretty good night, better than what he thought it would be and he survived... (which i worried about as Brendan is NOT a people person and is very quiet & shy)...

I then took Jordan to mums and Stephen dropped me off at work..
Just after lunch around 2pm i was finished with work and thought i might go home, as i work a double shift on Fridays and would be back in a couple of hours...
So at 2.30pm i left work and thought i might walk home... (its only about 3.5klms, but it was really hot)...
Then i thought i might as well just walk to mums (only about 1klm, but up the biggest hill in Kurri.. lol) and then though, nope i have to get the kids anyhow, so i walked to the school.. (almost the same distance to mums and yes, that hill too)...
So i walked up to the school and saw that the Yr 3'ers' were allowed to be 'collected' from the hall. So i went and got Taylor and we went & waited for Dan near his classroom and she told me all about the great time at camp she had...

After the bell went and we got Dan we walked up the main street on our way to Mum's house.. The kids got an ice-cream and we just strolled along the street...
We got to the end of the main street, only a block away from mums and Dan & I decided to have a little race, sort of...
I'd only gone about 2 foot in front when i went CRASH to the ground... yes you can laugh...
I went face first, but luckly i didn't land on my face.. I had actually landed on my left hand & right elbow..
I quickly sat up and pretended nothing was wrong cause i was so embarrassed..
Luckily it was at the END of the main street and not in the middle of it and it was only in front of the CES (even though that is usually full, lol) but there was no one around, thank god!!!!!!!
I laughed & laughed and fought back the tears.. I didn't want to cry incase someone was watching and i looked even more stupid...
I had scraped my leg, but my work pants took the brunt of that and thankfully i still have all my skin there... lol I had a graze on my left hand, but it wasn't too bad..
Then i realised i couldn't get up, i just couldn't move...
I couldn't move my right arm at all. I knew it wasn't broken as i'd be in a lot more pain than that, but i just couldn't move it at all..
I didn't have a clue what to do. We just sat there (like derro's out the front of the CES, lol).. I then rang Brendan, told him what i had done and could he please come and get us..
When he got there he had to lift me up to get me off the ground, i just couldn't move or use my right arm to help..
I got in the car and bawled my eyes out then..
We went to mums, where Jordan was too. The kids thought it was funny and thought they would reinact what i had done, (with Taylor adding a few more spills and rolls here & there!!! OH & laughing LOTS!!!!!!!!) Mum got out an ice pack & put on it and that when i discovered i had taken a chunk of skin off, ouch!!!

I still cant move it much now, it hurts like hell, gosh i hate to know what a break feels like..
Mum & Brendan think i may of chipped my elbow/bone & think i should get it checked out, x-rayed, but i don't know..
Plus im too chicken to go, what if they 'touch' it, OUCH!!!!!!!! it hurts too much........
Sorry about the scary photo...
You can't really tell from the photo, but it is really swollen and there is some bruising around it. I don't think its the scrape that hurts though, it is my actual elbow that is killing me heaps...
YES, i am a bloody idiot....
and yes, you are allowed to laugh, cause i did and still do when i think about actually doing it.. But not when i can feel it.. lol

Ok, i best get going, this has taken me ages to type out, cause of my right arm (yes, i am right handed) hurting so much...
Have a great day..............xx

Belinda Emmett loses her battle

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Much loved Australian actor Belinda Emmett has lost her battle with cancer, dying at the age of 32.
She died at Sydney's St Vincent's Hospital shortly after dawn with her husband, television host Rove McManus, and her family by her side.
"It is with great sadness we advise that Belinda Emmett's battle with cancer has ended," her family said in a statement.

"Belinda passed away just after dawn Saturday morning at St Vincent's Hospital in Sydney with her family and husband by her side.
"Those close to her have requested respect for their privacy at this time.
"Emmett grew up on the NSW Central Coast and got her acting break when she appeared on popular long-running soap Home and Away, playing Rebecca Fisher/Nash, between 1996 and 1999.
Diagnosed with breast cancer in 1998, at the age of 24, the actor successfully underwent surgery to remove the malignant tumour, followed by six weeks of radiotherapy. After a period in remission, Emmett was diagnosed with secondary bone cancer in 2001, while playing nurse Jodi Horner on the Seven Network's hospital drama All Saints. "Our deepest sympathy is extended to Belinda's family who have supported her through this illness," Seven said in a statement. The network paid tribute to its former actor, saying: "During Belinda's time on Home and Away and All Saints, she made many long-lasting friendships. "Her acting ability and her warmth made her a joy to work with and her spirit will be remembered. "Emmett's Home and Away co-star Nic Testoni, who played her husband Travis Nash, said he was saddened by the news. "I am very sorry to hear that," he said. A spokesman for St Vincent's Hospital refused to say how long Emmett was being treated at the hospital before she died, saying the family had left the premises before 7am (AEDT) Saturday.
"As you can imagine, they are very distressed," a hospital spokesman told a large contingency of media gathered outside the hospital. Emmett and McManus were regarded as television's golden couple, meeting at the opening of Fox Studios in Sydney in 1999. They became engaged in July 2004 and married in January 2005, at Mary Immaculate Church in Waverley, in Sydney's east. "We're kindred spirits," Emmett told a newspaper at the time. McManus cancelled the upcoming episode of his TV show Rove Live, with the Ten Network issuing a statement saying it was not sure when the show would return. "Ten will give Rove the time he needs away from the show and any support we can during this very sad time," Ten said. "Our heartfelt sympathies are with Rove McManus and the Emmett and McManus families. "Emmett's last television appearance was with McManus on ABC television's Spicks and Specks Christmas Special, in December 2005. She was also a singer, having released two albums and recently recorded a cover version of James Taylor's Shower The People, with Marcia Hines. An upset Hines, when contacted by AAP, declined immediate comment. Emmett's most recent public appearance was at Seven's 50 years of television celebrations in September. There, she caught up with many of her Home and Away mates, including Kate Ritchie, who plays Sally on the soap. Emmett also attended the recent ARIA Music Awards, but stayed behind the scenes, watching proudly as McManus performed hosting duties.
Prime Minister John Howard said he and Mrs Howard were saddened by Emmett's death."She fought a very courageous battle against cancer," Mr Howard told AAP. "On behalf of Janette and myself, I extend my deepest sympathies to her husband, Rove McManus, and her family and friends."Opposition Leader Kim Beazley also passed on his sympathy to the Emmett and McManus families. "This is truly sad news which I think will affect all Australians," Mr Beazley said. "The tenderness and care in their relationship (Rove and Belinda) through their adversity, I think, has been an inspiration to many, many Australians."

Breast Cancer is one thing that i am passionate about in fighting..
It hasn't been something that has occurred to anyone in my family and i hope it doesn't, but for some reason it is something that i feel strong about. Strong about fighting that is...
I think it is down right discussing that you have to be over 50 for a mammogram, well on the 'free' mammogram program that is...
Why is that younger woman can't be included in this as well???
Don't young people get it???? BULLSHIT they do...
And isn't is just proof that there as been alot of 'celebrities' diagnosed with it in the last couple of years.
And there 'known' people, what about all the people that aren't 'known' about????
Cancer doesn't discriminate, anyone, any age can get it, sadly...
Why can't the age be dropped down to 18????
If someone could explain that to me reasonably then i might understand, but honestly, i don't think anyone can..

have been saddened today by the loss of Belinda Emmett.
No i didn't know her personally or at all, but i have known her on the television and followed her career & marriage to Rove and thought she was the most beautiful person there was..
Her fighting spirit was uncanny and she showed alot of grace, determination and spirit.
My heart goes out to Rove and all of there families...

Angus & Julia Stone

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This is my new favourite group/songs...
Well, i have HEAPS of favourite songs, but i have just seen these guys live and they were great..
Funny & odd Julia is, but she has a fantastic voice and is sooo musical and into her music. They are an Australian brother & sister and have 2 other guys playing with them, one they just picked up in a bar when playing in London..

Ive found one of there songs on the thingy down the side, so ive added it for a little while now...
Check out there website, it looks great.. Plus you can listen to 4 of there songs there too...

Angus & Julia Stone

Julia is just so pretty too... She looks heaps like Lauren (my dad's girlfriends daughter) only Laurie is blonde...

OMG, ive done it...

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Dance concert is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND i DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooohooooo..

after much stressing, worrying, and being sick, i actually went on stage!!!!!!
i did the dance and i am still alive...

We had our dancing concert on Sunday night (Nov. 5th) and all went well, well almost all.. there was a bit of a stuff up with the music at the beginning, but that was the muso's fault and it sorted itself out not too long after...
The kids were excellent...
i was disappointed that i couldn't just sit out with the crowd, mum & Brendan included and sit & enjoy the whole show from the comfort of my chair... lol
After being at dress rehersal the week before (ALL day) we knew (Bronwyn & I) that the Tiny Tots, Jordan's group, 15x 2, 3 & 4yr olds weren't going to get ready, quickly changed & organised by just 2 ladies. So we offered to help out too..
And we knew we would have to be out the back getting ready for our dance too and we could have a quick practice or two being out there...
I sneaked out every now & again to watch the kids but sadly, i missed the Boy's Group (both Jordan & Dan's boys only group) and had to watch it from the side of the stage and i missed Taylor's Cha Cha Slide song, but did get to watch it on the big screen in the dressing room. But that wasn't the same really...
Im looking forward to getting the dvd and watching it all again.. Not that it will be the same, but at least we will have that...

We, being Bronwyn, Kathleen & I had our dance too... Second half, song 10..
We started getting ready at intermision and boy was i sweating & shaking then..
I was so nervous i was almost ill. I was ill but i almost lost my food from the day before (not that day, cause i hadn't eaten all day and couldn't). I did managed to sneak downstairs just before the concert started and had a real quick vodka.
We practiced our dance about 4 times while waiting backstage. I think by the 3rd & 4th time, i was over it and didn't want to get 'over practiced' (if such thing??)..
Kathleen was really ill, poor thing.
We were waiting just behind the curtains backstage, waiting for our turn to go on. I was EXTREMELY ill by then, i couldn't stop shaking, thought i was going to throw up and was really stressing and thought i was going to pass out..
We were called onto stage and then i remember coming off the stage..
After all that stressing, i can't remember a thing... lol
I can sort of remember doing it, i remember missing one little step and that's all i remember of the dance.. lol how funny is that..
Everyone said we were good, but what else would they say??!!! ha.

Everyone ended up finding out about it at work (as my boss, Vic was there watching his daughter) and they have all said its good that i had the courage to get up and do it, but how funny... lol

Everytime i hear the song now, S.O.S by Rihanna i want to just jump up and do it.. lol
and i go over every step in my head. I know ever step exactly and can't stop stepping it out in my head with or without the music... lol

AND guess what???????!
I got a trohpy!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOO
i must get a photo and post it here....

i don't have any photos of me, phewwww, thank goodness... Who would want them anyhow... lo
I do have some photos of the kids though, there not the best, but at least i have them though..
They are over at my Photo Blog though, so if you do want to check them out, check them out over there... :o)

Am i doing dancing again next year??!!!
Of course... :o)
I haven't decided about doing the concert next year or not, but i am definately doing dancing. I'll decided about the concert when the time gets closer....

See ya tomorrow... xx

just a bit of a rave (for now)..

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hello everyone,
how are you all going???

im sorry, yet again, for being a bad poster...
i have had heaps to chat about, but i think i just keep putting it off cause i did have heaps to say and didn't know where to start... lol stupid theory isn't it....

i have been pretty sick these last few weeks and feeling really crap.
i am having lots of trouble staying awake, im getting headaches cause im so tired, im so cranky, moody & miserable (more so than normal, lol), i can't even think of anything else at the moment, but just really crappy stuff!!!!!!
finally went & saw my dr. on Monday!!!
Anyhow, she sent me off for some blood tests, ewwww AND i had to go on my own, boohooo, i so HATE needles... My dr. then made another appointment for Thursday for when the results would be back... I got a phone call yesterday and she wanted to tell me the results, so i got in to see her today...
Anyhow, (raving yes).. Its nothing too serious, just my blood pressure is low (she said that's not too bad, better to be low than high), my iron is way off the chart, low. And the usual, my Thyroid levels are WAY out of wack (more so than usual)... That is all reason for me being so run down... I have yet got another case of the cold with tonsillitis starting again, BUT as usual when im stressed & run down i get it... And she told me i am just extremely run down... THANKS...

ok, that's just me...
Oh & there MIGHT be a possibility that i MIGHT be pregnant!!!!!!!!!! SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
i only said MIGHT though, MIGHT... don't get too excited, i'll let you know as soon as im sure or not!!!!!!!!

Mum is going pretty good..
I haven't posted anything here about mum's hand yet. i'll do that one day soon (with photos, yuck!!!!)
She got her bandages off yesterday and oh gosh, YUCK!!! you should see the cuts, yucko!!!!! with strict instructions from me, she took her camera with her and took a photo of each side, yucko!!!!!!! She now has a full hard cast on and has to have it on for at least 4wks before going back to see her dr to see how its going...
She is still in LOTS of pain, but she says she just have to put up with it and hope its all worth it in the long run...

What else is happening here??? Oh i have been flat out busy with the dance concert coming up, only 4 sleeps to go!!!!!!!!! OH GOSH!!!!! that's scary!!!!
i am absolutely SH*^ing myself... We had full rehearsal & then full dress rehearsal on Sunday and we were terrible... lol
(we were much better at LAST practice last night though, phewww, but that's not to say we wont fail on Sunday night though.. lol)..
Ive told mum & Brendan that there has to be someone to laugh at there, AND THAT'S US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol
i'll keep you posted.....
Oh, but you should see the kids, they make me cry everytime i watch them.. they are so cute...

Well, i think i have raved enough for one night...
see ya

Something to fill in space

2006-10-31T14:35:00.000+11:00

because i have so much to say & write about, i just can't be bothered to start or even know where to start...
So, i thought i'd use this to fill in some time/space...
I have 'borrowed' this from someone eles' blog, so if that person comes across it, THANKYOU......

Basically everything in bold, is something i have done/experrienced.

1. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
2. Swam with dolphins
3. Climbed a mountain
4. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
5. Been inside the Great Pyramid
6. Held a tarantula
7. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
8. Said “I love you” and meant it
9. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo (lol a fake one)
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Eaten fugu (pufferfish)
89. Had a one-night stand
90. Gone to Thailand
91. Bought a house
92. Been in a combat zone
93. Buried one/both of your parents
94. Been on a cruise ship
95. Spoken more than one language fluently
96. Performed in Rocky Horror Picture Show
97. Raised children (still am)
98. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds (45.5 kilograms) (nah, only joking, but half!!!)
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111.Ridden a bike
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one important author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life

Feel free to do this yourself, but let me know so I can come and read it :)

Its nice & warm....

2006-10-14T18:00:00.000+10:00

Its bloody hot...

our sleepy little town made national news on Thursday, cause it was on fire!!!!!!
Some little shit decided he was bored and thought he'd light a couple of fires, so Heddon Greta was then on fire for most of the day...
I'd like to see his face if it was his house on fire, or even his dad's shop (they have a gift shop in the main street!!!)... cause he's only 14 he's going to get a 'good talking to' by the Fire Department, but had he been over 18 he would of got 14yrs jail... huh??!!!!

Today has been a rather warm day...
we reached 35 degrees yesterday and i think its been 38 today... will watch the news in 10mins time and see...

back when i can for a better up date..
my SIL, niece & nephew have arrived in town this morning from Darwin for a week and we are having a bbq at my (other) SIL's house....
what joy!!!!!!!!!..xx

havin a down day..

2006-09-28T12:37:00.000+10:00

ohhhhhhhhh...

im really procrastination here at the moment...
i have so much housework to do, but i just can't be bothered doing it, let alone starting it..
Which has been an on going thing for me of late..
(& my poor house is starting to feel it and so is the family..)

i have been having heaps of depressed state of minds lately and i just can't shake them...
i am so torn between things at the moment i don't know what to do or how to fix them..
its hard for me to write this, but it is something for me to put on paper (well screen i guess)
i think i might make my blog a little less public and hide it away so i can hide away my thoughts..

Things are really good with Brendan & I, but sometimes there not..
but everybody has times like that..
i think my biggest problem is, the main thing that tears most families apart is...
money...
but im not going to go into that, i know what the problems there is and don't need to write it down...
(at the moment)

I have another huge problem/hurdle i just can't jump over...
i think i want another baby????
i know that sounds a bit silly, but i just can't get over the thought of wanting another...
i don't feel complete, but maybe i will never feel that...
i can't keep on having baby's just to never have that feeling, gosh i could end up having 100??!!! huh!!!
Sadly though, there's more negatives out weighing the positives...
We definitely need a bigger house, there is no way we could fit another child into this
house.. If we have another child we would never be able to get the house we want for even longer.
I couldn't afford to have the mat. leave off that i would really want..
Having another child would put even more strain on our finances and would deprive the other 3
kids of what i want/can give them...
i know i shouldn't put so many negatives on a loving much wanted, beautiful little baby, but i really
do need to be realistic...
I also have a lot of what if's if i was to have another baby...
We already have 3 beautiful children, they are perfect in every way..
They have always been good kids, even when they were newborn babies, slept well right from the start
and were just happy good babies...
What if i was to jinx myself and have another baby and things were totally different to the other 3???
Oh gosh!!!!!!!!! i just don't know, my head is spinning out of control...

Work...
i am so over work.. but who isn't..
gosh im really sounding like a spoilt brat!!!
i really really don't want to work..
i know i am putting off doing the much needed housework, but i hate having only the one day off work,
where im suppose to be the 'housewife' and be chained to the kitchen sink and do all the motherly/wifey
chores...
I want to be able to be home everyday for my children..
i want to be able to do housework EVERYDAY!!!! (gosh that sounds funny!!!) but if i had everyday at home i
could get things done everyday..
I want to be able to cook a proper meal everyday and not be rushed around like a mad cow of an afternoon,
cause im trying to fit all the kids activities in.
I want to be able to sit & enjoy my hobbies. I love (& need) my hobby, but i just can't squeeze it in anywhere..
I want to be able to have the time to go out for a walk or take Jordan to the part when were home together,
or take the kids here, there & everywhere when it's school holidays, instead of organising babysitters (family)
for them for particular days while i have to work...
But, i have some debts i just can't jump over, i want a new house, i want my kids to still do all the activities they do,
have all the nice new clothes that they have, and sadly, i just have to work...

Speaking of my hobby..
i have let a few people down of late and i just can't shake myself into it..
i have more scrapping supplies than the shop up the road and i have so many photos that
i really want & can scrap, but i just can't get into any of it...
i think cause i have been feeling so extremely flat (& depressed) lately, i just don't think i deserve any
rewarding me time, so i just don't go near my (dusty) supplies....

gosh i rave on with crap..
i honestly think i should just shake myself, wake up and stop feeling sorry for myself...
tomorrow is my b'day, but it is just another day really..
I love to make b'days so special for kids when they have one, as they are just so disappointing when you get older.. lol
i think i need to make an appointment with my dr...
i need to get off my fat a*s and get some work down...
have a great day...

oh how weird is that...
i just got a text message off Brendan, right now...
Just incase i forget to tell you later, I LOVE YOU :o)

going now, cya..xx

NRL Grandfinal week...

2006-09-27T23:09:00.000+10:00

Im going to the Footy Grandfinal,
WOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not that i follow either the Storm or the Broncos, BUT we do both follow the Eels & the Knights, so we are both looking forward to watching the Jersey Flegg (for the Knights (v Panthers), Brendan's team!!!) and Premier League for the Might Eels for me.. (against Newtown Jets)
Go the Eels...

But if you do have to follow someone for the main game, then i guess i'll go for the Storm and Brendan has decided to go for the Broncos...

Do you want to know how i got tickets and CORPORATE tickets at that????
They are courtesy of Bob Fulton, yep, THE Mr. Fulton...
it sometimes pays to be in this 7days a week 364 days a week employment!!!!!
He has gave them to my boss and he asked us who wanted to go (the other 3 of us in the office always get first preference with give-aways... :o) )... but he knew i would want to go with Parra playing, so i got asked first.... woohooo...

were going to get the train down, saves worring about driving...
then Brendan said, how about we stay the night to save worry's... Ok, yeah sure...
IF we can get anywhere at the last minute...
Brendan suggested The Hilton.. I have always wanted to go there, since there renovations, so he said he'll take me there and that will be part of my b'day prestent...
But guess what.... completely booked out... :o(

anyhow, we tried the next place and we have an executive suite, right in the heart of Sydney, so that's good... Avillion Hotel i SOOOOOOOOOO can't wait....
So now we will get a weekend away that we were going to have the other week, for our wedding anniversary, but got very guilty and took the kids with us....
But it was a GREAT weekend with them...
now we get a weekend (well half anyhow) to ourselves....
We can leave Newcastle Sunday morning, checkin, go to the footy, stay at our poshy motel, have a yummy (hopefully) b'fast there and then take our time, relax & make our way home..
Oh gosh that sounds good!!!!!!!!!

Well i have to go, it is freezing here tonight & im still sitting in my sweaty netball clothes, ewwww!!!!!! probably why im so cold....
i must go have a shower and get to bed....
i have been tagged too (more than once.. lol) so i'll be back as soon as i can to do a better update and my tag questions.... (even though they have totaly stumped me???)

night..xx

Happy Birthday Jordan..xx

2006-09-19T22:19:00.000+10:00

It is so hard to believe that FOUR years ago today,

we welcomed my precious little handsome man into the world...

He was just so tiny..

And now he is a cheeky little monkey..lol..

Here he is showing you how old he is..
FOUR!!

Jordan was due on my birthday, September 29th...
what a pregnancy it was...
i was extremely stressed & worried for the first 12wks (after losing our baby before Jordan), i was worried after the 12wks mark, but not as much...
From about 12wks i was starting to have back problems (which i already had before kids anyhow, but they got worse after each pregnancy) and i started having pelvic cramps too..
From about the 16wk mark i couldn't lie down, well without having cramps & back spasms & not being able to get up... So, i started to sleep, sitting up in our lounge.. That's where i slept till even a couple of weeks after i had Jordan...
I began begging my OB/GYN, (who was a wonderful man) to induce me from about 30wks on.. But he wouldn't be in on it.. lol.. I gained just over the 'normal' amount of weight, but i was HUGE. When they measure your tummy, which is usually the same amount in cms as weeks you are, well at 37wks my tummy measured 52cms!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!! No wonder i couldn't walk. But that was that my pelvis had given in and from 30wks on i had to wear a brace...
Anyhow, my blood pressure slowly started to rise more & more (from me being in so much pain, plus i started to get pre-eclampsia) each time i went for a checkup and at 37wks he decided (gave into my pestering him!!!) he would induce me and because of my size he was threatening a big baby...
Taylor was born on her due date @ 8lb 13oz and Daniel was born on his due date @ 8lb 14oz, so Dr McGrath thought i would have another big baby...
So, 10days early from me due date, i went in to be induced.... How scared i was, i knew what was coming... lol
well i arrived in at the hospital, not a bed available, had to have a blood test to make sure everything was going fine.. i couldn't get a bed till around 10am, can you believe that 11 baby's were born that day, not bad for a little town...
I was hooked up to the drip & my waters broken at 12noon, plus they didn't actually start the drip straight off, she didn't set it enough. At 1.00pm my one huge contraction of HEAPS of pain handsome little man arrived into the world...

Day: Thursday
Date: 19th September 2002
Weight: 3400gms or 7lb 8oz
Length: 51cms

I left the hospital the next day and bought our new baby son home to his big sister & big brother who were extremely excited to have a beautiful new baby brother.
and i have to say, they still are....

Poor little Jordan wasn't getting the right kind of food he was needing, well apparently he wasn't getting any (even though he was an excellent baby, he didn't show his malnourishment) we had a home checkup four days later after being discharged and Jordan was down to 3140grms or 6lb 12oz.. i put him straight onto the bottle and after a couple of weeks he turned into a real little cuddly porker... :o)

That's a run down on Jordan's entrance into the world, four years ago today..
i shouldn't be typig this out, it is making me extremely clucky, but then again, what doesn't??!!!! LOL
I was going to take a photo of all Jordan's presents today, but when i got home from dancing, Taylor had already put them all away in his room...
i will get them all out on Thursday and try & upload a photo here...
thanks for reading IF you have got this far.. lol...

Happy birthday my handsome little man..xx

9/11

2006-09-11T14:41:00.000+10:00

It is so hard to believe that it has been 5 years since the terrible attack on the world..
The day the world changed forever...

It is still so hard to comprehend what happened that morning (in the US), that night here when the first plane flew into the north tower of the WTC..

And then only minutes later, a second plane flew into the south tower..

Images from that day are set in our mind and will never change again..

2,973 died and another 24 remain listed as missing.
these numbers are made up from the WTC, the Pentagon and the Shanksville United 93

A day of rememberance

just found this photo and thought how interesting it was, so i thought i would share it here...
This photo is taken September 12 from space: Manhattan spreads a large smoke plume..

half September, already..

2006-09-10T18:21:00.000+10:00

It is so hard to believe that it is almost half way through September already...
how time is just flying...
and how sad the first half has already been, esp. the first day...
that news still breaks my heart when i think about it... :o(

On to some good news..
Today was Nan's b'day.. She was 76 today (she thinks she's 176 though..lol..)
Mum bought her down to the Club and the kids (plus Maddie) met her there and we had lunch and cake... Not heaps exciting really, but its something for Nan to enjoy...

5 more sleeps and we are off for the weekend..
And our Wedding Anniversary too... 6 years....
We haven't had a holiday in exactly 2yrs, so even though its only a quickie, it will be better than nothing... And i desperately NEED it at the moment.. Too many scary thoughts (& worries) going through my head at the moment, so the break will be nice..
Here's hoping we have nice weather though...

Speaking of the weather, we have had so much rain here in the past 4 days, it isn't funny..
On the news they have said, it has been the wetest couple of Sept. days since 1880something???

The kids & i went to the Elsley's yesterday, Bronwyn was having a lingerie party and insisted i went, so it looked like she had friends... lol
the kids drove me bonkers though!!! 8 kids inside all the time (as it poured of course) and the house is all tiles and boy did it echo!!!!
Taylor & Daniel ended up staying over the night (that is Dan's wife's place) and i felt guilty for Jordan & Hannah (his girlfriend) then, so asked if Hannah wanted to stay at our place...
It was a test though, she is only 4 and hadn't stayed at anyones place before...
10.30pm she was ready to go home... lol AND it was bucketing down outside...
i didn't mind though, it was worth the try and i didn't want her to be upset.. Jordan was heaps though... He bawled his eyes out when she said she wanted to go home. Hannah & i just got outside the door and he was asleep.. He had cried himself to sleep, god love him...

Jordan & I did some grocery shopping on Thursday morning, which i don't know why i bothered, oh yes i do, i was freezing and wanted something hot for lunch.. lol.. It was absolutley pouring down.. I got drenched... anyhow, Jordan had been hanging out for bananas for ages, but there just hadn't been any around... Hidden inbetween some apples, here were 2 lots of 5 bunches, @ $13.00 akilo!!!!!! of course he spied them and just HAD to have them... and i felt guilty for breaking one of the bunches, so i bought a whole FIVE BANANA'S!!!!! they only cost me $7.58 OMG!!!!! they were worth the expression on his face though... he enjoyed every single one of them... :o)

i'll have to tell you the story about Jordan & his apples....
he loves apples (just like banana's) and has anywhere up to 5 a day...
but, what he does is... he eats them like anyone else does, but he 'stores' the skin in his cheek.. He chews off the skin, puts it to the side (in his mouth) and eats the flesh from the apple.. He does this for the WHOLE apple AND sometimes even the 2nd apple... I tell him to go spit out the skin, sometimes he says no (i think he wants to get all the juice out of it, lol) but he goes to the bin and spits out this great big clump of apple skin!!!!! lol
sometimes he'll even fall asleep, while eating a apple and all the skin is still in the side of his cheek in his mouth...
At least he eats his fruit... lol

Im still trying to decide what to do about Jordan's b'day in just over a week..
He wants to have a party, (i was thinking of just a Macca's party), but we just don't have a spare day/night/weekend to do it?? im really not sure what to do about it yet.. and then the longer i take thinking about it, the sooner its going to be here and it's going to be too late???!!! :o( oh, decisions, decisions.............

We have Netball this Wednesday night...
Im SOOOO worried about it... i was going to finish off my netball post the other week, but just didn't get back to it... ooooppppss...
Bronwyn asked me to play in her netball team, at Cessnock... She works for the CBA at Cessnock and the girls there were putting in a team...
i was SOOO excited, but SOOOOOOOO nervous... I haven't played netball in over 15yrs and haven't coached since then either... i had always played when i was a kid, up until we moved to Kurri and then i was coaching.. (then i met Brendan and that all went down hill then.. lol )
I was(am) worried that i can't keep up with the girls or the game, (im aLOT bigger now than i was then!!) and i'll embarrass myself and them??!!! AND i hate the thought of the uniform!!!! wearing those terrible netball skirts!!! I hated them when i was 5 & up, so now at 30 (almost 31) its worse!!!!!!!!
We played our grading games the other week. Bronwyn said they were going to bum it and hopefully get in a lower grade!!!!!!!!! HUH!!! i think as soon as those girls got on the court they just went straight into attack!!!! I played GK (less to run, lol) and the first game was a wipe out!!!!! it was so fast and i had to think hard & fast to get into it... we got flogged... We were to play just 10min games... The girls played a bit too serious for me and for what i thought we were going to do...
We then sat off 2 games and then had to play our next 4 straight!!!!!!! (which we won!!!)
I think my body didn't know what had hit it when i was finished, but i wasn't as buggered as i thought i would be... I was excited about it though, i did some good moves & intercepts, so i was happy with myself... But i think i was a little less worried cause we just wore what we wanted for that night... This Wednesday however, is the start of the comp and its uniform night!!!! boohooo!!!!! We did get in the lower grade though, thank goodness~!!!!!!!!
Anyhow, i can only see how i go and try my best....

~ Dancing!!!!!!!
i can't remember if i hinted out about dancing or not???
i started doing tap dancing a couple of years ago, just for a bit of exercise and a bit of fun..
This year i talked Bronwyn & Kathleen into doing the ladies Street Jazz with me... (instead of the tap, even though i LOVE the tap, but i just couldn't fit both in)...
It is so much fun, we have a blast... We always said it (which i have said it for the past 3yrs too) that we are only doing it for fun and that's it, NO concert...
WELL, guess what??????
were going in the concert!!!!!!!!! i still can't believe it... and i don't think Kathleen or Bronwyn can either... The kids all think is so kewl and exciting... lol
we have said we want to wear all black and blend into the back drop. lol.. but we are going to wear black pants and something black & red on the top.. We are also going to wear black wigs with a red streak, hoping NO ONE will recognise us... lol..
Our song we are doing is S.O.S by Rihanna....
I'll keep you posted how we go... LOL

ok, i think i have raved enough for tonight (shhhh i am at work!!!! lol)
take care & i'll be back soon.....xx
ive tried to add some photos, but blogger wont let me!!! :o(
sorry..

OH my gosh, yet again...

2006-09-08T15:34:00.000+10:00

OMG!!!!!!!!
what a terrible week it has been...
it is just so unbelievable...

yet another news break today, just like on Monday,
saying that Peter Brock has been killed in a racing accident..
Yet another Celeb. dying doing what he loved best...
its just so sad..

September 8, 2006 - 3:07PM

Racing legend Peter Brock ... reported killed.

Motor racing champion Peter Brock has reportedly been killed in an accident in Western Australia.
A car competing in the Targa West rally crashed into a tree at Gidgegannup about 30 kilometres north-east of Perth about 12pm, a Western Australia police spokesman told smh.com.au.
The car was carrying two people and one had died in the crash, he said.
The major crash investigation unit was at the scene, he said. Ambulances were not called.
The spokesman could not confirm the driver was Mr Brock, although that is being broadcast on Sky News.

we are (def. NOT) holden fans, but it is still just so sad...
he was only aged 61 and died in a Rally near Perth...

Drive on Brockie.....

finally a bit of good news.. & some sad :o( ...

2006-09-07T11:44:00.000+10:00

Im going to see KASEY CHAMBERS!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOHOOOOOOO

i so can't wait... if you see my story a couple of weeks ago (Monday, August 21, 2006 Not Happy.. ),
you will see why i have been waiting & waiting to see her...
i am just sooooooooooooo excited....
and so is Taylor.... lol

i so can't believe it... I have been so sad about not being able to go and wondered when she would tour again next time. I have even tried to email her a few times, but they just kept bouncing back to me, saying it was a wrong email addy, hhhmmmmmm???

anyhow, on my way to work on Sunday morning i heard that they had announced a second concert!!!!!!! i was like OMG!!!!!!! in total shock.. It is going to be on the Monday night... I rang Brendan straight away to see if he was working in Newcastle and could he go to Ticketek to get me x2 tickets. (they could be my b'day present!!!) He asked who was i taking with me, i said, i don't know, i don't care as long as im going!!!!!!! He (& the apprentice) went to ticketek but it wasnt opened.. i looked the concert up on there website (ticketek) that night at work and the tickets didn't go on sale until Monday anyhow... SO, i asked him to PLEASE get me 2 tickets first thing Monday from work... 1x adults ticket & 1x junior ticket... i have decided i am going to take Taylor with me... she will be sooooo excited, her first concert. She has been dying to go to a concert and to go see Kasey too, so it all works out great.... Brendan came home with my tickets on Monday afternoon... woohoooo...

I wasn't going to tell Tay that i had the tickets, until the time got closer, but then i though, why should i have all the fun of being excited, she should too... You should of seen the tears well up in her eyes and then fall.. She was so happy & excited, it was beautiful... i cried too... lol

i also got a text off Shannon (my SIL) that arvo too, just after Brendan got home with my tickets, to say that our Robbie Williams tickets have finally arrived!!!!!!!!!! Woohoooooo what a great day for entertainment it was for me....

We had (one of) our Staff Parties on Monday night.. Mum picked me up at 5.30pm & dropped me down at the Club.. We then got our Courtesy bus into the HR for dinner and then headed back to the club around 9.30-10pm... When we arrived back, there were police all over the road out the front, at first we thought it was just a breathtest, as they often do out the front, but then we saw a car on the side of the road. & thought it might of been a car accident... but there was only one car & it wasn't smashed at all... Then it was OMG, someones been hit by a car!!!! yep, poor old Mabel that comes to the club often, had been crossing the road, in the dark, in dark clothes, as she does all the time, had been hit by a car & was killed... It was so sad... She was the sort of person that didn't have much at all.. She always was dollied up to the nines, but with very odd & old clothes (if that makes sense). Sometimes not even shoes. She would walk, well she would shuffle the streets constantly. And at odd times in odd places.. People use to see her walking 5klms away from home, at 2am in the morning. She just walked & walked & walked all the time.. I have since found out that there was a time there that she was kicked out of her flat and so she lived in the rotunder up in our park in the main street, until she got a new place to live... We had always said, sadly, that she was an accident waiting to happen... poor thing...

Our party was the quietest ones we have had ever i think... maybe it was cause of Mabel & nobody was in the mood anymore... We did have an ok time though, playing the jukebox & pool and having the whole club to ourselves... I ened up going home at 2am... An early night for me....

It is still so hard to believe that Steve Irwin has died.. i think every Australian is in a state of shock.... he was a true Aussie Icon.. When i told the kids about it, Jordie's response was: from the wiggles??? (he was in The Wiggles Safari) oh no.. Dan was a bit upset and all Taylor could think about was poor Faith (my 5yr old neice).. He as her idol and she was going to be devistated... I texted Kel (my SIL in Darwin) to send my wishes to Faith, but they hadn't heard anything... She was worried Faith would be devistated and was getting prepared to tell her when she got home from school....
On the news there saying that it is hitting kids hard... Faith was extremelly upset when Kel told her, she then got all upset & worried that she might die and then that her mum & dad or brother Taj might... She took some calming down and isn't as bad now, she knows she can see him all the time on all her dvd's she has of him.....

Well Tuesday was the funeral of poor little Rani... it is still so hard to believe that she is gone.. it is just so sad... my heart goes out to her mum & dad, Mel & John and her big brother & sister, Josh & Teagan.. my thoughts and prays are with you all at this sad time..xx
Taylor, Dan, Jordan & I let a little candle for her... I gave the kids and extra big kiss & cuddle too...

Well, i best get going...
it is absolutley pouring here today.... we had 40-50mms of rain over night, but it seems like we have had that much just this morning.... bbbrrrrrrr & its cold too....
i wont be doing much today, im still wet (even though im sitting here with the fire next to me and the other heater going out the back too)... Its just going to be (yet another) lazy day...
Jordan's glued to the playstation, as always, i have done my grocery shopping and have tea orgainised, & i have the telly to watch today too..
have a great day everyone...xx

5yrs on..

2006-09-06T23:18:00.000+10:00

i will never forget this day, 5 years ago today...
i will never forget the days leading up to this day or the days past this day, 5 years ago today..
Today, September 6th, but 2001 and a Thursday, was the day i lost one of my babies....

When we found out we were pregnant with baby number 3, we were over the moon with excitment...
Things at work had turned around, the worst boss in the history (that's a whole other story), that had made my life hell for 5yrs had been given the sack. That was the best news..
But, the wicked witch was still there and it was only the 2 of us running the club...
i had then stepped up from 25ish hours a week, to about 50hours a week...
i was getting exhusted & worn out and i was missing my family...
It wasn't too long after that, that i had noticed something wasn't right..
I had gone to my OB/GYN to start my checkups, on the Tuesday...
i had, had a spot that day, which i had never had with my other 2 pregnancies...
he told me that wasn't a good sign and sent me off for a blood test...
i couldn't comprehend what was happening... i went & had my blood tests done.
The results came back the next day, but things were much much worse..
i was really really spotting then, but not just spotting, it was much much worse...
My Dr rang, who was the nicest man ever, he had been with my previous 2 pregnancies & deliverys... My results showed my progesterone was sitting at 13 instead of around 300...
I was then booked in for the next day to have a curette & d&c...
It was the most heartbreaking thing i have ever gone through...

Our story that we told Taylor & Dan was that this baby just wasn't ready yet, it wasn't his/her time to join us...
it was then 4mths later that we found out we were pregnant again...
the first 12wks were extremely scary & then the next 26 (i was induced 10days early) were scary too... But, we welcomed a beautiful handsome man into our family... Jordan...
He was now ready to join our family...........

it was a huge chunk of bad luck that month...
its something that i'll never forget or get over i guess,
but i guess it paved the way for better things & times..

Sadly then, 5 days later, the world changed forever...
9/11
i was on the internet, chatting to a couple of American friends, when the news flash came over the telly... They were showing the footage of the first towers crash, when suddenly, the second tower had been hit...
Anyhow, everyone knows what happened and how terrible it was...
In my head & heart, that was an extremely terrible week. One that i don't want to have to witness ever again..xx

the candles you see is the candle i bought afterwards and kept for this date...
i decided to light little Rani's candle again tonight and sit next to my little candle too...

Thankyou for reading my story....
Take care.....xx

angles are amongst us...

2006-09-05T10:43:00.000+10:00

You held my hand for just a short while..
but you will hold my heart for ever

If tears could build a stairway
And memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.

OMG, Steve's down...

2006-09-04T15:55:00.000+10:00

Breaking news at 2.30pm this arvo........

Crocodile Hunter Steve Irwin dead
September 04, 2006

THE Crocodile Hunter, Steve Irwin, is dead.

He was killed in a freak accident in Cairns, police sources said.
It is understood he was killed by a sting-ray barb that went through his chest.
He was swimming off the Low Isles at Port Douglas filming an underwater documentary and that's when it occured.
Ambulance officers confirmed they attended a reef fatality this morning at Batt Reef off Port Douglas.

this is so unbelievable, my gosh... xx

editing to add...

i found this poem at a place that im a member at and thought i would share it here...

THE CROCODILES ARE CRYING

Endless visions fill my head – this man – as large as life
And instantly my heart mourns for his angels and his wife
Because the way I see Steve Irwin – just put everything aside
It comes back to his family – it comes back to his pride

His animals inclusive – Crikey – light the place with love!
Shine his star with everything he fought to rise above
The crazy-man of Khaki from the day he left the pouch
Living out his dream and in that classic `Stevo' crouch

Exploding forth with character and redefining cheek
It's one thing to be honoured as a champion unique
It's one thing to have microphones and spotlight cameras shoved
It's another to be taken in and genuinely loved

But that was where he had it right – I guess he always knew
From his fathers' modest reptile park and then Australia Zoo
We cringed at times and shook our heads – but true to natures call
There was something very Irwin in the make up of us all

Yes the more I care to think of it – the more he had it right
If you're going to make a difference – make it big and make it bright!
Yes - he was a lunatic! Yes - he went head first!
But he made the world feel happy with his energetic burst

A world so large and loyal that it's hard to comprehend
I doubt we truly count the warmth until life meets an end
To count it now I say a prayer with words of inspiration
May the spotlight shine forever on his dream for conservation

…My daughter broke the news to me – my six year old in tears
It was like she'd just turned old enough to show her honest fears
I tried to make some sense of it but whilst her Dad was trying
His little girl explained it best…she said "The crocodiles are crying"

Their best mate's up in heaven now – the crocs up there are smiling!
And as sure as flowers, poems and cards and memories are piling
As sure as we'll continue with the trademarks of his spiel
Of all the tributes worthy – he was rough…but he was real

As sure as `Crikey!' fills the sky
I think we'll miss ya Steve…goodbye

Anon

a day of sorrow...

2006-09-02T10:41:00.000+10:00

it is just heart breaking that i have to post this, but i feel i just have too..
i can't stop thinking about it and how sad life is...

Poor little Rani passed away yesterday afternoon...
She has been fighting for so long and just couldn't handle it any more...

ive been around the blogs to check things out, i think to just try and stop my mind from racing, but i just can't...
i came across Julie's blog (as i always read) and she has posted some excellent websites..
im going to 'borrow' them off Julie, as im sure she wont mind and post them here too...
actually, i'll post her whole post too, so those that dont see Julie's, they will see it here..........

please give..
your organs to some one who needs them ... we can all become donors - its easy to do!!!you can tell your family members, put it on your drivers license or put your name on the national registry http://www.anzdata.org.au/ANZOD/anzodwelcome.htm
medicare registry
http://www.abmdr.org.au/ talk about it with your children and love ones. PLEASE!!!!!!

If you need a bit more of a push, please read Mels blog - http://www.millar5.blogspot.com/.
Lives can be saved!!!!!

this is all so true.. as much as we don't want to think about it, that very well could be anyone of us one day and we just might need that life saving donation ourselves or our children...

take care of your loved ones and never let life get in the road of love...xx

Loving you is easy,

We do it every day,

Missing you is a heartache,

That never goes away.

When links of life are broken

And a child has to part

There is nothing that will ever heal

A parents broken heart....

Loved with a love beyond telling,

Missed with a grief beyond all tears.

A child that loses a parent is an orphan.
A man who loses his wife is a widower.
A woman who loses her husband is a widow.
There is no name for a parent that loses a child,
for there is no word to describe this pain.

A Life may last for just a moment....
but memorys can make that moment last forever...

~~~ Author Unknown ~~~

Oh my gosh!!!!!!

2006-08-30T12:20:00.000+10:00

TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT!!!!!

and i feel violently ill!!!!!

i am playing netball tonight and i am soooooooooo sick & worried about it...
i haven't played netball in over 15yrs and then i was only coaching...
im not sure what is worse though???
OH yes i do, i know whats worse than playing tonight!!!!
THE UNIFORM!!!!!!

now that is what is making me sick!!!!!

bbs

Camping weekend...

2006-08-27T21:56:00.000+10:00

Well, we have been camping for the weekend...
The kids had a GREAT time...
we did heaps of things that the kids had never even seen before, let alone done..

On the way home, i asked each of them, there best & worst parts about it, here's what they said..............

Taylor's best part: going bush in the back of Grandad's car
Taylor's worst part: having to go home

Dan's best part: driving the car
Dan's worst part: going home

Jordan's best part: playing in the sand
Jordan's worst part: going home (& no playstation)

PoohBear's best part: cuddle from Jordan (when he got in the car)
PoohBear's bad part: having to stay in the car the whole time

Oh yes, Jordan insisted i ask PoohBear his thoughts on the whole trip too...

Brendan drove his work car out with us and the kids & i went in my car..
He had to go off to work early in the am (5am) and didn't want to miss out on at least one day & night there... So he just go up and went early, while we all slept..

i'll finish updating this later, WHEN & if i can get my piccies to work... ;o)

Funny story...

2006-08-23T18:50:00.000+10:00

Brendan asked me to go away with him sometime next month..
he knows ive had a pretty stressful last couple of months and knows i just need to get away...
Well, i didn't think i did, but he does (& i guess i do, so i might be able to stop crying every 5mins & every drop of a hat AND ESP. at work too, how embarrassing!!!!!!!!)

Anyhow, he was going to orgainise it and it was going to be a romantic getaway, just the 2 of us, somewhere he would pick..
i secretly hoped he would wisk me off to Melbourne for the weekend, as that's where i really would love to go (besides Fiji that is!!!)...
We tee'd it up with Mum & Stephen to have them.. take them & pick them up from school on the Friday and to have them over the weekend... they are keen to have them...

A week after he decided this, he sent me a text mesage, this is how it went...
Brendan... hey babe, what do you think about us taking the kids...
Me... why do you feel as guilty as i do???
Brendan... yep

SO, were now taking the kids with us... huh!!!
so much for a romantic weekend away... Oh well, it doesn't worry me/us at all...
They deserve a getaway as much as we do... (cause you know how busy a social life those 3 little ones have.. lol)
Anyhow, i still didn't know where we were going to, UNTIL today... lol
I had an idea we were going to Port Macquarie, as we both like it there and its only a 3hr drive from home...
Today when i went to get the mail, heres an envelope addressed to Brendan, with Flynn's on Surf up in the top corner... lol It must have his reciept in it... (don't worry, i didn't open it)
When he came home from work today, he asked if i had seen the mail and i tried TRIED to keep a striaght face & say no, but i just couldn't...
I did pretend i didn't know the place (which i didn't until i looked it up on the internet) and asked if we had stayed there before (we have, there just changed there name!!) and he told me no... lol

So, we are on count down till we get away for a couple of days...
OH & i forgot to say, the 16th of September, is our wedding anniversary too... ahhhh!!!!
it doesn't really bother us having the kids with us for that though, as we took Taylor & Dan with us on our honeymoon anyhow... lol

OK, now the ironic part to this....

When we got married, soon to be 6yrs ago, Brendan organised the 'honeymoon suite' for us..
That was to be a surprise too..
Secretly our wedding party had orgainised a limo to pick us up from the wedding reception (which i {alone} had done for my best friend the year before). Only my best friend who organised the limo knew where we were going, so she could tell the driver...
A couple of days before the wedding, an envelope arrived in the mail for Brendan, with a nice little logo in the top left hand corner... It said... Peppers Anchorage Port Stephens, oh my gosh!!!!!!! do you know how expensive that place is???!!!! well it cost us $550 just for one night!!!!!!!!!
anyhow, that is the same thing that has happened to us about our wedding anniversary weekend away next month...
how ironic is that???!!!!!!!!

ok, just thought i would fill in some time while im at work...
If you have read this, i hope your still awake... :o)

Oh & while im at it.. i'll tell you 2 funny things about our wedding night..
NO, i wont tell you any 'other' details...
We got picked up in our limo around 1am to go to the 'wedding suite' which was about an hours drive... We then left in the morning, as b'fast wasn't included, around 9.30am to have Macca's for breaky, how romantic.... SO, we were only there for 7.5hr @ $550 a night, golly gosh!!!
ALSO, when we arrived to our beautiful room, there on the coffee table in the middle of the room, as a beautiful BIG bunch of fresh long stem red roses.. Oh my gosh they were beautiful, i so wish i had my camera (no i didnt take it with me, this was before my scrapbooking days, :o( ), i thanked Brendan heaps for them and he told me, when he booked the room, cause we were on our wedding night, they asked would he like them for the room... Of course he said...
When we checked out our bill the next day, here was a little extra on the bottom, $50 flowers... WHAT THE!!!!!!!!! anyhow, Brendan didn't care...
But that's alright, at least we now know the room really only cost $500 for the night!!!!!!!
OOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

ok, going now... cya..

post no. 1 (ive over blogged) oopppps

2006-08-23T10:29:00.000+10:00

i started doing a post the other week and then had to do some 'real' work...
how dare they make me do proper work while at work, don't they know i have important things to do???

anyhow.. i have just been putting it off for ages cause i was so far behind and now i am wayyyyyyy behind... i have to try & think what i have been up too..
maybe like my last *embarrassing* long post where i had to catch up, i started from now and worked back... i guess i should just do that again now...

~ today (Monday), i am at home instead of working... Taylor is home today sick.. she started off with stomach cramps yesterday and now she has a full blown head cold and isn't very well at all.. it will look like i'll be home tomorrow too, probably???
I have heaps of things i should be doing around here too though, so i should be using it to get ahead while im at home, BUT instead ive done NOTHING!!!!

Ive been dying to update this blasted blogg for ages, so im going to sit here and attempted to get as much as i can done now....

Sun 20th August
was the AGM at work.. everything went smoothly which was pretty good..
everyone then sat around for the morning, noon & afternoon OH & the night...
that's what happens when the club puts on free drinks for its members... lol
I had been sick all morning, so it was the last thing i wanted!!!!! i got home around lunch time, had a quick bite and then had a lie down.. before getting up to go to work again...

Sat. 19th August..
Happy Birthday Brendan...
it was Brendan's birthday on Saturday.. as always he got up around 4am & headed off to the gym. Got home & washed the car..
when the kids got up, they made him b'fast.. we then all got ready and went to Netball...
it was the last netball game for the year.... we won, of course... 13 - 1... Taylor scored 6 of the goals.. Taylor then went to Maddy's house for the arvo and the boys & i all went out for lunch and some shopping...
we then headed out for dinner, with the inlaws, Kathleen & Rols and Brad...
we went to Griffo's. the inlaws then took the kids home with them and we stayed on for a good night out... I didn't think i had that much to drink really (not like i usually do??!!) but i was VERY ill the next morning.....

Sunday 13th August..
Happy Birthday Taylor...
Sunday we spent the day at home to celebrate Taylor's 9th birthday...
i SOOOOOOO can't believe that my baby girl is now the big NINE!!!!!!!!! double figures next year, oh my gosh!!!!
Danielle came over and spent the day with us...
All the relo's came & went during the day and she got some beautiful presents... (which i'll try & show here!!!)
Taylor's presents...

Mum & Dad- ears pierced (again??) & 2x handbags (mum couldn't decide which one?? lol)
Dan & Jordan- High School Musical CD & Mean Girls DVD (that Tay had picked out)
Uma & Poppy- wooden Jewellery Box and a beautiful charm braclet.. Mum (my mum) had been saving this up for Taylor for a long time.. the charms that are on it come from all over the world (mainly from Lyn).. Uma is going to add to her braclet every birthday.
Barr- Bratz doll & Bratz diary
Grandad & Maxine- pink thongs & a Roxy wallet.
Shannon & Brett- shorts & 2 t-shirts and a watch.
Nanna & Pop- (over-expensive) heart diamond pendant necklace
The Halls- 3x pack dolls.
Danielle- jewellery/bead maker

i went a bit over the top & bought 3 cakes for her and mum had also made her a yummy caramel tart... I ended up taking half of one to work with me (& the other half is still sitting in the fridge, oopppps) and the kids took a couple of pieces of another one to school with them...
we had an easy tea of fish & chips and then took Danielle home around 7.30pm..

i dropped a piece of cake off to my Nan the next day and she said Taylor had told her, the only thing she was disappointed in with her b'day was that Danielle couldn't sleep over...
phewwwwww, glad that was all it was... (it was a school night...)

Saturday 12th August..
last day of soccer today....
we played Weston, which when we played them last time we bet them, 3- 2...
ALL the kids played a great game and it was so action packed & thrilling....
Very on the edge of your seat too... sadly we didn't win, BUT we didn't lose either... the score was 0 - 0.. thats how great of a game it was...
Netball was the second last game and we won that too.. 12 - 6... :o)

we went home & got ready for an afternoon out as a family...
we had planned on taking Taylor to the movies, & to take one of her friends, Danielle.. But Danni's mum had organised a surprise for Danni and was taking her to see The Young Diva's... So she couldn't come with us...
We went to the 3.30pm session to see Hoodwinked.. Not my fav., but the kids enjoyed it... Not as good as all the other kids movies... esp. Cars...
After the movies, WHICH btw.. is such a rip off these days.... I bought our 5 tickets, (had a voucher for one free ticket), got the kids 3x small popcorns (AND Jordan lost the lot of his!!! grrrrr!!!) a bag of chips and 2x large drinks... all that (not really that much) cost $65.00!!!!!!!!! and they wonder why people don't take there families out that much!!!!!!!!!!! huh..
anyhow... we had a good time at the movies and then headed out for dinner afterwards...
Taylor had a lovely pre-birthday celebration...

What else has been happening??? For the life of me, i can't remember....
I'll come back with the rest... ive over blogged..xx

Edited: i have over blogged, so i have split my long post up over to a couple of other posts...
:o)

post no.2 THANKYOU Susan..

2006-08-23T09:49:00.000+10:00

oopppss...
i have over blogged and it wont let me work at all...
i made out a huge post, with a few too many photos and it decided to shut me down... :o(
SO, i have been calling out to an EXCELLENT computer lady, who knows what she is doing (which btw, everyone knows more than me anyhow!!!), but she has done an excellent job (and on her day off!!!) at helping me out...
THANKYOU so much Susan for all your help...

i have had to break down my posts, so im going to try & spread them out over a couple of posts & see if that works...
Maybe it is just too many photos on my blog altogether, and not just in serparate posts???
Oh well, we'll soon see...

Here are a couple of Taylor with her b'day cake(s).... :o)

post no. 3

2006-08-23T09:36:00.000+10:00

Sunday 6th August..

Taylor had yet another gala netball day... This time it was at Cessnock... Our girls still play modified rules, ie. small stepping allowed, 4ft away not 3, no-contact pulled up on, blah blah blah.. WELL, we started our first game on the Sunday morning AND it was BIG rules!!!!!!!! HUH why wasn't we told??!!!! anyhow, the girls got pulled up on alot of things that they weren't aware of... they didn't even know anything about standing beside, out of play, for contact, etc... so we played 8 games that day... we lost 2, had 1 draw and won 5... that was pretty great considering.... overall for the day, in our section we came runners up... We arrived there at 7.30am and didn't leave till 4.30pm.. no wonder i had a really sore back that night...
We also had a gala day back on the 23rd of July too.. this one was played at Maitland... It was classed as a 'fun day gala day', so the kids our age group didn't worry about keeping/recording scores... But we did.. lol We got to Maitland Park at 7.30am.. the girls had to play 6 games today... we won all six games, woohooo.. we were the only team there, in any grade, that was undefeated that day.... :o)

post no.4

2006-08-23T09:32:00.000+10:00

What else has been happening???

Weight wise... i started on a new program about 2wks ago and it worked well for 2 days, but then that was it.. im always looking out for a quick and easy way to lose weight, who isn't??? Sadly, this was a quick fix scam and even though it probably (it has) worked for some, i didn't work for me... :o( I did however, had my weight & measurements done at Curves last week.. i had a loss of 1.8kgs, yay that sounds good, BUT that was over 4 weeks.. :o( i guess better than nothing at all.. BUT, i did have a loss of 9cms.. woohooo.. i really really need to get focused and get back with the program & get shifting...

OMG!!!!!! i must tell my exciting news... it isn't really for anyone else, but it is for me... i am playing NETBALL!!!!!!!!!!! i just love netball.. i played it for 10yrs (not continuous though :o( ) and i coached for 5yrs.. Since Taylor has been playing it for the past 2yrs, i have really wanted to be able to play again.. WELL, Bronwyn (Maddy, Tayla [Dan's wife] & Hannah [Jordan's girlfriend]'s mum) asked me if i wanted to play... YES, sure kewl................... BUT, i haven't stopped having nightmares since.... what am i having nightmares about... 2 things of course... how will i go??? i haven't played for 10yrs.. not that i forget it, but im alot, ALOT heavier now and out of practise.. So i really hope i can handle it and can keep up with the other girls AND not embarrass myself??????!!!!!!!!!BAD THING No.2......... the UNIFORM!!!!!!!!!! oh gosh i so hope it fits????!!!!!!!!!! and doesn't look too dorky?????????????? i'll keep you posted on how it goes......

Ok, i think i had better get going now... I haven't done a thing all day, but sit here.. Ive updated as much as i can for now.. but i will come back as soon as i can (yeah i know, ive said that before) and i'll update more then.... I have to get going and go pick up Jordan & Dan from school, do the dishes before Brendan gets home.. Go to Curves and get some groceries this arvo... I'll hopefully be back sometime tonight... take care all...

a bit of sad news...

2006-08-23T09:19:00.000+10:00

we had some very bad news this month too.. One of my closest friends online, had a terrible thing happen to her... Her mum decided to take her own life. It has been so heartbreaking.. Poor Bec who has lost her mum & the grandmother to her 2 beautiful girls and 2 (twins) children yet to be born... Im going to post a bit of info. that Bec's sister Mel posted over at EB and she has included a petion that they would like everyone to sign.. it is to try & stop the nasty drug that Bec's mum Nikki had been taking & was trying to come to terms with withdrawing from it... I know Bec wont mind me sharing this here as she's hoping as many people as possible will sign the petition for her & her family.....

I am writing this for a couple of different reasons. My sister ~Bec~ is known by many of you also. Some of you might know my family's situation by now. If not, my mother committed suicide on Tuesday by hanging herself in my Dad's shed. I found her body. She was 45 years old.Mum had been sick for coming up 7 years. For a long time it was unknown what was wrong. Many possibilities were tossed around including MS. After having some teeth removed about 18mths into her illness, she started getting better. She went from barely being able to move to walking again. It was found that she had mercury poisoning from her amalgum (sp) fillings. This reprieve was short lived and she soon became really sick again.Earlier this year, her test results came back saying that she no longer had mercury in her system, so they started to cut out her medications. One that she had been on for 4 years was called Rivotrill. It is intended for use by people with severe epilepsy to help control seizures. Mum was on it for pain management, restless leg syndrome and tremors. This drug was only ever trialed for 9 weeks before it was placed on the market. This drug killed my Mum.There is an online petition to make known the effects of coming off this drug. Mum is not the first person to kill themselves coming off this and unless everything is disclosed prior to prescribing this drug, she wont be the last. This petition is also in place to ask drug companies to thoroughly testdrugs before placing them on the market to help prevent this sort of situation.Please, please , please read the information on this site and sign the petition for my Mum and my family. We need to prevent this from happening to other people. If you know anyone who is on Rivotrill (also known as Klonopin in other countries) please get them to read this to inform them of the effects and so that they can start to plan to get weaned off this drug.Here is the petition: http://www.petitiononline.com/K12345/petition.html This is also to put out there the plea that if you do feel suicidal, please don't do it. I know it sounds so easy to write that down but many people in my circle of family and friends, myself included) have suffered depression. I have been to those dark places before and have contemplated suicide myself on more than one occasion. Seeing how this has effected so many people has made me realise that no matter how hard things get, I could never do that to the people I love.This has destroyed our family and everyone we know. I have a 10 week old daughter who will never know her Nanna. My sister has a 5 and 3.5 year old and is pregnant with twins. The twins will never know her and her girls' hearts are breaking. It only just clicked with Ebony today that Nanna won't be coming back. I thought that my brother may have been spared some of the pain because he had not yet had children, but as he said, Mum will never attend his wedding, she will never see his children.My Dad is beside himself. He wants to stay in that house. He is petrified that if he does that I won't visit or bring Emily around. And I can't tell him that I will. I can't go back there and see . . . well anything. Not yet anyway.You have no idea how much somebody effects everybodies lives. The bag checker lady at our local Big W always asks how our mum is going. We told her that she had passed away and she started crying. The chemist, the butcher, everybody loved her but in this case even that wasn't enough.For everybody else, please look for signs in loved ones. The signs were there with Mum but she had always been so outspoken about suicide and how selfish it was- she had even talked a few people away from that edge - that we never thought that this would happen. It was not my Mum that made this choice . . . she wouldn't have but this drug induced illness had such a hold over her that she could not get out.Please hold your loved ones close tonight and never let them go....

Not Happy..

2006-08-21T22:25:00.000+10:00

Last year, November 19th, there was a concert at Bimbadgen Estate that i was dying to go to....
Kasey Chambers was playing there.. I had been wanting to see her for ever...
I was so excited about this, as its (almost) my home town...
I thought i would check out my calendar to make sure i wrote it down so i wouldn't miss it!!!!!
OMG!!!!!! The kids dancing concert was on that day... (all 3 of them do tap & jazz dancing) and
it was there end of year concert that night!!!! ohhhhhhhhh
anyhow, not much i could do about it then...

SO, i checked out the tour dates (a couple of weeks ago) for when & where Kasey
is playing at in the up & coming tour...
Newcastle Civic Theatre, November 5th, woohoooo!!!!!!
i can't wait....
i double check with our dancing teacher the next day,
to make sure we don't have any rehearsals on that day,
as rehearsals are ok to miss (for me anythow)...
BUT, your not going to guess... well im sure you will now...
The kids dancing concert is Sunday, 5th of November, in Newcastle!!!!!!!!!!
ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i just soooooooooo can't believe it... exact same thing, 2yrs running...
i just so want to cry...
One day i'll get to see her, one day...
(she only lives about an hours drive away too.. lol)

bbs

2006-08-21T16:14:00.000+10:00

gosh, its been ages since i have blogged..
i only sent through the last post today and look at the date from when i started it... ooopppps

i have wrote out a long boring post today, but i want to upload some photos first before putting the words with them...
my photos don't always work here.. :o(
so, i'll be back sometime later tonight to finish it all off...

see you soon..xx

bad blogger, AGAIN!!!

2006-08-09T17:49:00.000+10:00

ive been a very bad blogger, yet again...
my apologies...

ive had heaps to say, but for the life of me, now that i have the time to sit here and update (yes, i am at work!!) i can't think of anything i was going to say..

well,

oopps, just got some work to do...
bbl.....

Im excited...

2006-07-27T22:45:00.000+10:00

Im getting a new computer, WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

ive had this old dinosaur for almost exactly (does that make sense??) 5yrs.. I so can't believe it has lasted and neither can my computer techy guy...
It is heaps slow and a pain in the big butt!!!!!
But it has got me through, just, but i will be extremely happy to have a new one... :o)
I rang Brad (our work computer techy) today to get a quote off him and he is going me a deal that i think is pretty good...
Im getting a HUGE harddrive, new keyboard/mouse/speakers, a dvd burner AND a 19" flat widescreen screen!!!!!! I am SOOOOOOOOO stoked!!!!!
Im having Wednesday & Thursday off next week, so im going to spend all day Wednesday cleaning up my brothel of a lounge room (how embarrassing, yes, it probably will take all day!!!!) i have scrapping stuff everywhere and i badly need to clean up the existing computer space...
I am just so excited i don't know how i am going to be able to wait a WHOLE WEEK!!!!! till i get it...
Brad is going to transfer ALL my stuff, (photos, documents, etc) over for me too.. What a lovie...
Ive also asked him about a PhotoShop too and he is going to install that for me too... woohoooooo
The only down side to getting a new computer, is will not go too well with my last post...
I was (and still am i guess) on a bit of a downer and feeling extremely flat lately (except for my excitment for a new computer)...
I was going to try and cull a bit of my computer time, which i have a lot anyhow. Not because i want to, but because i just don't have any time..
How am i going to not want to play with my new toy when it comes????
And, you know what's really really going to pee me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Brendan on it all the time, ESP. when he doesn't contribute to ANY of its purchase or upkeep (ie. broadband costs!!)...
Im very contradictive aren't i..... oooppps sorry...

Im on a mission!!!....
Curves has a competition starting on the 1st of August, for the whole month..
Its called 'The Biggest Loser'... hhhmmmm wonder where they got that title from... lol
There are teams of 8 and you have to get weighed in at the beginning of the month. The team that loses the most weight at the end of the month, wins..
Then, the results go up against all the other Curves around the Newcastle & Hunter area..
The winning team from there then wins a prize... I read it only on Tuesday, but i can't remember what it is now.. derrrrrrrrr
Plus the individual biggest loser wins a prize too..
All our team names (there are 12 teams) have something to do with sweet desserts...
Guess what my team is called?????????
Mud Cakes
hhhhmmmmmmmmmm yummy...
Oh & mum is in my team too...
I had all intentions of water loading over the weekend, ready for my big weigh in on Monday, but when we went today, Louise (from Curves) talked me into getting weighed today.. So i did (which was VERY scary anyhow!!!!), there goes my intentions of drinking 10ltrs of water over the weekend for a successful weighin to help me by the end of the month... lol
Oh well, i guess thats fair, but i reckon heaps of people will do it...

SO, after all that...
I have full intentions of (trying) to do my best for the next month!!!
I know easier said than done, esp. when it comes to me...
but i have to at least try and see how i go. After all, i can't let my fellow Mud Cakes down, now can i...
Wish me luck everyone...
and could someone PLEASE go to Kurri Bi-lo and buy ALLLLLLLL the Mint Pods there is, so i don't!!!!!!!!! thanks, muchly appreciated... :o)

i'll keep you posted...xx
:o)

giving up...

2006-07-26T13:05:00.000+10:00

Ive decided im going to give up on a few things at the moment..
I am flat out trying to get my life & work to work insinc, but it is a bit hard at the moment..

I signed up for the Daily Challenges at TSH, but i only did Day 2 and that was it.. There's no way i can do another 30 to match last months record (for me)...
Ive got a CJ to complete and pass on.
Ive got a couple of recipe cards for a swap to finish off and post off.

And then there's the MESS of a house im living in at the moment..
I bought myself a new cupboard to put away some of my sprawled out scrap mess, but it is still sitting in the same place where i left it and now it even has stuff starting to pile up ontop of it, that should even be there!!!!!!
My room is starting to look like a dumping ground (along with my living room) and it just seems to be breeding...
I desp. need to get the tv/video/dvd players out of our room and back in the boys room where they belong... I took them out of there because the boys had been so mess and now they have decided to 'live' in our room, just so they can watch telly... SO, Dan has cleaned his (& Jordan's) room up, so they can have there tv back now...
Then i can get all the dvd's & videos and CARS out of my room...

I just need to find some spare time to do that though???
Does anyone have any they could lend me?????

So, what am i giving up???
I don't really know??? I know i just cant be bothered doing anything at the moment..
Im so keen to get into my exercising but i just cant be bothered.. lol does that make sense???
They have a Biggest Loser comp. happening at Curves for all of the month of August. I have put my name down for it, hoping it spurs me along, but im just trying to work out where im going to find the extra time to do more exercise????

I think the biggest thing im going to have to give up on at the moment really is my (love) my computer time... I don't seem to get much of it anymore anyhow, but when i am surfing, i should be cleaning or sleeping... Plus, my old dinosaur is frail and failing, so that doesn't help either... I love chatting with the girls at TSH, but then i can't seem to keep up with them though...
Ive neglected my poor Mum's group alot lately and i feel real bad..
Esp. with all the excitment happening over there...
Irene 10+ days past her EDD and Tanya & Katrina will be due to have there 4th little baby bundles in the next couple of weeks, AND OMG!!!!!!!! Bec announcing that she is having TWINS!!!!!!!!! it is just soooooooooooo exciting.... AND im extremely jealous!!!!

Well, ive raved on as always and it probably doesn't really make any sense...
I best get going.. I am at work (what's new) and hoping i don't get busted... lol

I'll come back later and tell all about my stressful/relaxing day yesterday!!!!! lol
take care..
love from me..xx

My Schedule.

2006-07-26T12:10:00.000+10:00

Well i am flat out at the moment, life doesn't seem to want to wait for me and im having trouble keeping up with it...

Here is what i am doing, atm...

Mondays- up & ready for school/work
8.30am- kids on the bus
9.00am- Jordan at pre-school
9.15am- me straight to work
3.00pm- pick Jordan up from school
3.20pm- pick Tay & Dan up from school
home to get ready for the afternoon activities
3.45pm- Tay to dancing
4.00pm- Dan to soccer
4.10pm- drop Jordan at mums with Stephen,
mum & I go to Curves for 40mins.
5.10pm- Pick Taylor up from dancing
(Brendan picks Dan up from soccer, IF he's not working back)
home.. organise tea, showers, homework, etc...
9.15pm- me to work for about 2.5/3hrs..

Tuesday- up & ready
8.30am- Tay & Dan go to bus stop
9.00am- Drop Jordan off at Pre-school
if i don't go to work this day, i'll go home & do my houswork...
3.00pm- pick Jordan up from school
3.20pm- pick Tay & Dan up from school.
go straight to mums, leave the kids there with Stephen.
Mum & I go to Curves for 40mins.
5.00pm- take Dan to dancing
organise tea
6.00pm- pick Dan up
7.00pm- me to dancing for 45mins
9.30pm- go to work for 2.5/3hrs

Wednesday- up & ready for school/work
8.30am- kids to the bus stop
9.15am- drop Jordan off at Stephens or MIL's
me straight to work
3.30pm- leave work & pick Jordan up
Tay & Dan catch the bus home
4.oopm- Jordan has dancing
drop Dan off at soccer
race around & organise tea
5.00pm- pick Jordan up
Brendan has Dan.
5.15pm- i go to work for 3hrs
home to do NOTHING!!!!!

Thursday- up & ready for school
8.30am- Tay & Dan leave for the bus
Jordan & I do NOTHING!!!!! or go SHOPPING
woooohoooo
3.45pm- Tay & Dan home from school
4.00pm- we all go (unless Brendan is home to have the kids) to mums
where Mum & I go to Curves for 40mins
5.30pm- Taylor has netball for 1hr
then NOTHING for the evening, woooohoooo

Friday- up & ready for school/work...
8.30am- kids leave for the bus
9.15am- i drop Jordan off at poppy's (stephens)
& i go straight to work..
3.30pm- finish work, pick Jordan up from mums
go home, get the kids organised for the evening.
5.00pm- i go to work for 3hrs

Saturday- up for Sport..
Soccer & Netball is anywhere between 9.00am & 12noon..
usually (just our bad luck) at the same time around 10am..

Sunday- everyone can sleep in
BUT ME!!!!!!!
6.00am- i go to work, for about3.5hrs
12noon?- we all go out for a drive & for lunch.
grocery shopping sometime in the arvo
5.00pm- i go to work, for about 2.5hrs..

That's my exciting life...
always on the go....
Im not complaining though, i love my kids and i love that they do lots of activities, its good for them.. I just wish i didn't have to work so much (i guess to pay for all the activities.. lol)
I would give ANYTHING to be a SAHM, but then who wouldn't really???????

Photos...

2006-07-20T23:33:00.000+10:00

I have no idea why my photos wouldn't work in a previous post???
not the last one, cause they worked in that??? but the one's before that, so i don't know whats doing there???

Anyhow, im just going to post a couple here now and see if they will work...

Here are our photos, well a couple of them.. From the Jaegers last home game we went too...
See the score board, YEP!!!!! we won... woohoooooo
The 2nd one is our 'new' seats, after we moved.. lol
And the last one is Taylor & Telisha, with the Jaegers getting congratulated by the Adelaide Thunderbirds, in the background.... :o)

Here is my blue hair..
It is suppose to be a real royal blue, but because it is 'new' it has come out a real aqua colour.. When i get the 'blue' re-done in a couple of weeks it will come out a bit darker then...

I wanted to get a group (is that the right word??? family might be better??) shot of the 3 kids.. Jordan didn't want to co-operate, but Taylor wanted him to be apart of the shot... lol
He then wasn't too happy afterwards... lol

Ok, i am way too tired and should of been in bed long ago..
I am at work tomorrow night and it should be pretty quiet.. So i might get a chance to update then..

Goodnight & sweet dreams.. xx

Ive been tagged...

2006-07-19T14:23:00.000+10:00

Well, the lovely Lisa has tagged me over at her blog...

What would i do with a lovely 27 million dollars...

~ This is my dream house (at the moment, cause it is on the market too.. lol)
I am so in love with this house at the moment, it isn't funny..
It is something that we both want and could have, BUT there is one, well maybe 2 little things standing in our way... the biggest one really is BRENDAN!!!!!!!!!

He wants this house just as much as i do, but he wont budge on trying to get it at the moment..
We have looked at a couple of other 'favourites' in the past, but nothing compares to this house.. It has EVERYTHING we have been look for, plus more..
Why wont he buy then???!!!! Because he wants to OWN our house before he even tries to sell it.. I know we don't owe that much (something like $45000) but i want it NOW!!!!!!!!!!
It has the 4 b/rooms i want, so the boys don't have to share anymore, it has all the 'living' room we want and the outdoor room we could want, esp. being so close to home, it has the shed space Brendan so badly wants, but more importantly, it has MY VERY OWN SCRAPPIN' ROOM!!!! :o) Now what more could a girl ask for...

~ I would definately give up work....
My life dream has always been to be a SAHM, so i would have no hesitation in giving up work..

~ I would deck out my house with all the (new) furniture we wanted..
Do some added things to the 'dream house'. ie. a pool, playground area for the kids, a roof over the existing deck...

~ I would pay off my mum & Stephen's house OR buy them a new one. What ever they wanted...
~ Plus give them enough money that would do them a life time.. So they could both give up work and not have to worry about money ever again...

~ Invest a nice healthy amount of money into each of the kids accounts..

~ Brendan would get bored if he gave up work.
He would love to buy some investment properties, and he then be the one to maintain them..
So that's good, that keeps him busy and keeps him out of my hair... lol

~ And i suppose i should let him (Brendan) have a little splurge too..
He would want to buy a new car.. We currently have a 2001 Landcruiser and even though it is a good car, Brendan would love a newer one..
I know he has always dreamed of owning another Ford, to go with his beloved XY Fairmont that he has... And im sure if he has any 'spare' left over he would probably buy something else????

~ Not have the worry of money, to take holidays whenever we wanted.
I have always so wanted to visit Washington D.C and Fiji.
And definately of course SWIG...

~ I would probably give my inlaws a shout??!!! lol..
i would definately give my youngest SIL some help..
They have been trying to have a baby for the past 4yrs now and have been through Artificial and now IVF, for the past 2yrs... Sadly it has been unsuccessful..
If there wasn't a way i could help with money (well, i could, by helping them pay for it as it has been a very expensive time for them) i would then see about if it can be done for me to be a surrogate for them??

~ I would make a healthy donation to some charities too..
But they would be only to certain ones that i choose... Such as.....
Sids and Kids
The Cancer Council
The Royal Childrens Hospital
Sydney Children's Hospital at Westmead
The Ronald McDonald House
The Royal Blind Society
Guide Dogs

Do i have any money left????
These are just the ones that i would strongly support..
There maybe some others, but these ones stand out for me...

~ And something that i so badly want, but sadly money does effect our decisions here,
is to have another baby....

I think alot of people might think 27 million is way too much for anyone to spend, but i honestly think i could spend it quiet easily.. lol.. Well who knows really??? Just the interest alone would be nice...
Security is the biggest advantage to winning a great amount of money..
Not to worry about a thing every again, not only for myself, but for my children as well..
The saying goes 'money can't buy love'.. And don't get me wrong, im not saying that it can, but it can certainly make it nice...
I think alot of (our) problems & arguments are from money, money worries...
I wouldn't love Brendan any more (not possible) or any less if we were suddenly millionaires, but i know we would be very comfortable, settled and a lot less stress worries...
Therefore we could sit back & enjoy each other more so & esp. the kids...
(thats if we have any left after all my shopping & giving away that i would do.. lol)

How's that for a rave....
I bet your sorry you tagged me now Lisa... lol

Thursday/Friday

2006-07-16T18:49:00.000+10:00

Well, it all starts with Jordan being sick all week with a cold..
He has been taking panadol for the week and i thought it was about time he shouldn't be taking it and he should be getting better...
It can be hard to get into see my Dr. sometimes and our hospital has an After Hours GP service.. So why not use it... (plus it saves the $46 my Dr. charges)
So i made an appointment for him and got in at 7pm..
I took him in and we saw the Dr. straight away.. He told me the panadol is fine, but he does seem to have a bit of an ear infection (which we didn't realise, cause it didn't seem to cause him any trouble!!) so we have antibiotics for that.. He also told me that he has a touch of asthma & a bit of excema... Great, Brendan is a chronic astmatic & Dan gets it too...
He gave me the antibiotics straight away, but we had to find a chemist to get him a puffer...

Anyhow, we went int BigW and hurried in (as Jordan had his pj's, dressing gown & beanie on) and grabbed it and headed home..
We got home & i gave him some medicine & some panadol and then he lied down on my bed to watch a dvd.. I changed into my pj's & made some toast..
I had just sat down to do some net surfing when the phone rang. It was a surprise, as it was just after 9pm... (i had really only been home 15mins)
It was mum.. She was saying that Nan needed to go to the hospital as her leg had flarred up again & only within an hour... Mum didn't have a car as Stephen had it at work..

My Nan is 75, but thinks she is 275..
She has Macular Degeneration, but she is also SELECTIVE deaf & blind too.. lol
She has had a problem with her left leg for 10mths now, they seem to think that she has Cellulitis. But it is not just ON her skin, it is inside her skin too, in the blood stream too..
She lives in a Hostel & even though it is next door to the (local) hospital, they aren't connected AT ALL!!!!!!

Our local hospital is HOPELESS/PATHETIC and that is putting it nicely..
It really is just a ward for the elderly, like a nursing home... It doesn't even have deliveries, children or 'elective' surgery.... If you go there, nothing seems to happen or get done..
I have taken Dan up there before in the middle of the night with an Asthma attack & it took 3hrs to get seen to and then the Dr. did NOTHING!!!! We have about 5 doctors in Kurri and none of them are worth going to .. Hence why i go to a Dr. out of town....

Anyhow, Nan has been up there twice in the last couple of months, staying for at least 5wks at a time.. And she still has the problem..
So, as soon as mum said she had to go to hospital, we both said she was going straight to Maitland no matter what!!!! (mum works there too.. )

We picked Nan up & took her in. Seen the triage nurse and we were sent straight into ED to wait to see a Dr. This was at 10.30pm....
As you can see from my previous post (2 ago!!) we didn't see the Dr. till 3.50am and we then didn't leave the hospital till about 5.45am....
So as you can see, i was buggered that day... lol

I have to go now, work is finally finished... ( i have done all 'my' work.. lol)..
I'll do an update probably in the next day or two with how Nan is going...
Thanks for reading my rave...
See ya... :o)

Weekend catchup...

2006-07-16T18:25:00.000+10:00

Well, im just at work, busy busy as always NOT!!!!!!! but shhhhhhhhhhh, don't tell anyone..
So i thought it was a good time to catch up here and update my blog...
I have a couple of favourite songs at the moment...
Shane Nicholson - I know what you need (which is the one i have here atm)
Rihanna - Unfaithful
Teddy Geiger - For you i will
The Frey - Over My Head
Stained - Right Here

Oh bugger.. I can't find a link to these songs to post here, sorry...
Anyhow, these are the new songs (well, just a few of them) that i have added to my mp3 player of late... :o)

Today Tay & Dan went to the football with Shannon & Brett...
It was a freezing day here today, so it would of been cold in Newcastle at EnergyAustralia stadium... The Knights lost, bummer, but THANKYOU, that the Eels won yesterday, WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry Brendan...
The kids have come to the raffle tonight with Shannon, so they stopped by my office for a quick hello.. You could feel on there jackets how cold it is out side, bbbbbrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

Brendan & I took Jordan to Heddon Greta pub for lunch, very yummy.. But i really stink of garlic now though... *blush*

Yesterday, was raining when we got up, so Netball was called off...
We were really hoping Soccer would be too, as we had to travel up to Singleton (40mins away) and wasn't looking forward to getting up there only to be told its cancelled..
Anyhow, i dropped Taylor off at Danielle's, she was sleeping there the night and dropped Jordan off at Mums. He is still full up with the flu & she was going to the hospital, so he was better off visiting Nan than going to Soccer in the cold & wet...
Brendan drove his (work) car to the Maitland depo. and Dan & i met him there!!!!!!!
OH, do you know what???!!! I had to get fuel on our way and in Kurri it was (diesel) 151.9!!!! That is so terrible!!!!!!!
Anyhow, we go to Singleton & played our game, IN THE RAIN!!!!!!! sadly we lost, 2 - 0...
We changed Dan in the car before leaving and headed for home, well sort of...
Dropped Brendan off at the depo to get his car & he then headed off to work for the arvo..
Dan & i then went into the hospital to see Nan... Mum & Jordan were there too..

After visiting, the boys & i then decided to do a bit of shopping..
We headed into Kmart... The boys bought The Duke's of Hazard PS2 game & a couple of little toys each..
I saw these really nice black cupboards, that i had eyed of a long time ago, but they were too expensive.. But today, they were marked down to clear... They were originally $199, marked down to $116 and then marked down today for $40.00!!!!!!! Yep, $40.00...
So i bought one...

Im going to tidy up my scrappin' space (huh, how funny!!!) and put some of my things in it.. woohooo, what a bargain.... :o)

Friday was a nothing day... As i said in my blurry eyed previous post, we didn't home till 6.am that morning, so i went to bed & didn't wake up till around 12midday....

Its bedtime...

2006-07-15T00:07:00.000+10:00

Well, im off to bed, finally...
I was going to do a post tonight about my great night i had last night, NOT!!!!
But im too bloody tired......

I'll come back over the weekend & do a better post & explanation, but here's a quick run down...

I took Jordan to the hospital at 7.00pm last night (Thursday) to see a Dr.
He has an ear infection, a touch of excema, cause he has a touch of ASTHMA!!!!!!!

Got home, put pj's on & made a slice of toast for my tea. Sat at computer.
Phone rings (its now around 9pm, we'd only been home 15mins), though, who is this at this hour..

It was mum... She had no car & we had to take my nan to hospital..

I pick mum up, we go up to the hostel, her leg is really really bad again (will explain later) and
off to Maitland Hospital (15mins away) AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
no way on earth were we going to go to Kurri Hospital (next door to hostel)
Gets in there, gets triaged, gets a bed in ED.
See a ED nurse, obs taken, bloods taken, wait for DR...
Doctor comes and sees her at 3.50am!!!!!!!!
YEP, that's right, we waited from 10.30pm till 3.50am!!!!
After getting checked out & getting a bed sorted, as she has to be admitted, she gets wheeled up to her bed
on the ward at 5.00am... Mum & I settle her in and then head for the front doors.......

I walked in the door of my place at 6.03am, had a HOT shower, quick on too.. Put fresh pjs on and was in bed by 6.13am!!!!!!

Ok, im going to bed right now, its 12.15am and why am i still awake, i don't know...
I'll do this post better & again at a better hour, sorry...
GOODNIGHT.........
(sorry if it makes NO sense at all!!!!!!!!) lol

Its been a while....

2006-07-13T13:40:00.000+10:00

Well, as the title says, it has been a while since i have done an update..
I feel like its been ages since i have been here, but actually i was here ALL day Monday creating 2 new Slides to put on show here..
I have added one down the side, which shows off my TSH June Daily Challenges, which mind you i completed ALL of them!!!!! Which was a total surprise to me...
I have then put my name for the July Challenges, but have done a whole ONE LO for them.. So i think i'll have to admit defeat and not worry about the other 29 that have to be done...
My 2nd Slide that i made just shows off some favourite photos of mine. So they are a main Slide in my title..
Im pretty happy with what i have acheived.. :o) A 1st for me...

So, what else has been happening here..
Not a lot really..
Jordan is FULL up with the flu at the moment and is very miserable..
Taylor 'reckons' she has it too, but its a bit of a fake sniff sniff really...

Its still school holidays here and it is great... Sometimes the kids get on my nerves, but that is only normal.. But it is so much better than all the running around we do when school is in.. No uniforms to wash, no lunches to make, no sport... it has been so nice...
Today we were going to nick down to Glendale (about 20mins away) i am after some more singlet tops that i bought last week at Jay Jay's.. They are excellent under other tops... But Taylor reckons she's too sick to go anywhere.. So we are stuck at home... I then thought i might get some scrappin' done, but all ive done it put it off, sit on at the puter, done washing, hung it out, dishes & cook lunch... At least it's a lazy day though..
Yesterday, i worked. Taylor went to Shannon & Brett's as she slept there the night before. They boys went to poppy's ..
Tuesday was a nice day. The kids went up to Barr's (my grandma's) for the morning. She hadn't seen them in a while and had a tree full of mandaines for them to pick (which btw, we left there :o( ) and i went into town (cessnock) and just did some nice quiet shopping on my own, it was SOOOOOOOO nice...
When we came home from Cessnock, Taylor had an appointement to get her eyes tested.. Thankfully, her eye's are very healthy and her vision is perfect...
Monday, i had a sickie. I stayed home with the kids as Jordan was heaps sick and i just wanted to be home with him.. He lied around on the lounge and did nothing and i ended up doing nothing except my slides, but it was a very nothing day...
This whole week has been a very 'NOTHING' week...
On Sunday, Taylor went to Danielle's for the day to play. (after i had been at work) and the boys & i went for a drive to Lochinvar to the pub there for a very yummy lunch (sitting in front of the big open fire).. We had been there before, so we knew it was nice... Then just did some grocery shopping on the way home and i then went to work..
Saturday, we still had Telisha here with us, so we all went to the Station for lunch, its always VERY yummy there too... Janice picked Telisha up around 3pm and we all then started to get ready for the party we were going too.. It was Denis Latter's 60th b'day. He is our handy man at work, but we have known him for years... It was a great party, it was at work and the kids had a ball running around the whole auditorium with all the other kids there.. All the drinks were paid for and the food was YUMMO!!!!!!!!! It was a pretty good night... Brendan didn't go, he doesn't like being where there is people he doesn't know, what a sook... But it was good, cause i didn't have to put up with his miserable mood!!!!! lol Mum went with us, cause she was invited too, but Stephen had to work, so she would of been on her own, so it worked out good... We then caught the courtesy bus home...
Friday, which was the 7th, this is getting confusing cause im going backwards!!!! lol
I went to work & the kids went to Mum & Stephens.. Oh that's what happened, they went 'shopping' for a new car... They looked at new Sonata's, Magna's & something else, but i can't remember what it is now??? Well anyhow, to cut a long story short, over the weekend, they looked at another Magna and that's the one they have bought.. Just have to wait for all the paper work to come through now and it's theres!!!!!! :o)
In the arvo, Taylor & I went & picked Telisha up from Janice's (my BIL's mum) and the 2 girls & i went to Newcastle to go see the Jaegers (netball) play... We met Bronwyn, her 3 girls, Tanya, her 2 girls & 2x of Bronwyn's friends, there and we all went in to see the Jaegers last home game... We had been the week before and it was fantastic, even though we had lost, but then we had *free* seats, thanks to Bronwyn's work (CBA). We had great seats too.. This time when we went, it was a bit more quiet, (which was sad really) and the whole back section was empty (which is where we sat the week before).. So at the 1st quarter, we moved from our cramped seats, up to where there was no one sitting and we then had the best seats in the house... lol

Telisha had a great night, she had never seen a netball game & thought it was really great.. She then stayed the night at our place. She has a pretty hard life where she lives (Port Macquire), so i like it when she gets to come down here in the school holidays & gets to come & stay with us for a couple of days.. Her & Taylor get on so well..
Thursday (8th), i went & had my tax done in the morning. Im so hoping i get all of what she told me back (& no one decided to take it from me before i get to spend it.. lol) Im hoping i get to pay off a bill and then buy a new computer.. I SOOOOOOO badly need a new computer... I had to get a form from Jordan's old DayCare, to do with this new 30% rebate thingy. And with that one piece of paper, i get an extra $250 back on my tax.. woohooo.. It pays to have all your receipts etc... :o)
The kids & I then had lunch at the club with mum. We then went & done some shopping at Target, as they had 40% off there kids underwear.. Which we needed BADLY!!!!!!! its funny how washing machines always seems to eat just one sock... So i spent up big there for the kids..
Wednesday, i had to work, so nothing exciting happened there... The kids went to poppies and they walked down to the Empire and had a nice outing for lunch...
Tuesday, i spent the day at the hairdresses.. I had to take the kids with me though, but they were pretty good.. I had packed drinks for them, lollies & a cupcake each.. They took books, pencils & Jordan took the DS game... We were in there for a while FOUR hours!!!!!!! gosh!!!!!! Instead of getting my 'magenta' streaks re-done, i got all new streaks and got them done BLUE instead... lol

Monday was the start of the school holidays and the kids went to poppies.. Tay & Dan had there bikes there and so poppy thought he would take them for a ride and get lunch... They rode there bikes & Jordan & poppy walked, all the way to Heddon Greta pub.. That is like a HUGE hill to the next town, which would probably be about 3klms from there house to the pub???!! Thats a huge effort for the kids and then to come back again.. lol. But they had a great time...

Well, i think that might be it... phewwwwwwwwwww
I know there is a couple of days inbetween the end of this post and my last post, but for the life of me i can't remember what has happened then????
i think i have over done it with a post for now though...
My lastest cravings....
Sakata Apero's rice snacks, But they must be the Honey & Dijon Mustard, YUMMO!!!
PODS have a new flavour out Dove MINT!!!!!!!! oh my god, they are so YUMMY!!!!! (everyone knows i'd kill for mint though!!!!)
Salt & Peper Squid... OMG!!!! This is so yummy... I had it at the Chelli a couple of times & then when we went to Abermain Hotel, they had it to... THEN, i though, hhmmmmm, i might see if Sandra (the lady that runs our bistro at work!!!) if she could get me in a bag of it... AND YEP, i have 2 (well only 1 left now) bags in the freezer... I just cook it in the oven myslef and its just divine...

Ok, how sad is that!!!!!!! Im talking about food like its an obsession!!!!!! oh well, i'll go & hide now...

OH BUGGER! none of my photos have shown up!!! :o( I'll have to see if i can load them up again later... sorry

-4, kewl..

2006-06-22T14:30:00.000+10:00

Well, ive gone back to work this week..
Even though i don't feel 100% better, i know i am getting there though.
I went back to the Dr's on Tuesday to see my own this time and show her how bad my mouth, lip & glands were. I still have a pretty big lump under my jaw, but ive been assured it is only a gland. My gums were still really red & swollen but ive noticed just today that they are starting to go down. My lip is still looking really yuck, but that too is getting better. The ear (yep ear) ointment that the Dr gave me is working a treat and is clearing it up quickly. (not as quick as i'd like, but its getting there)...
My dad called in this morning to see how i was going and he said it (my lip) looked terrible (gee thanks Dad), gosh, he should of seen it last week!!!!! But at least i know it's getting better... (im still having to use a straw for my drinks though!!!!!)

Ive just had my first 'real' meal today. I was craving a salad roll from my favourite sandwich place, Fullicks... My usual. Chicken, lettuce, tomato, cucc, carrot, cheese and sour cream, YUMMO!!!!!!! (DEF. no onion, butter or S&P though!!!!)
Monday a week ago, was the last time i had a meal and even though it has been a painful week, it has been GREAT for the diet.. I lost 4kgs in a week!!!!!! how kewl is that!!!!!!!!!! Im dreading going back to eating again in a way, its been great watching the scales go down... I'll just have to behave myself & watch what i eat and make sure i stay on track and keep this downward scale happening!!!!!!

Ive booked our accommodation for our nights stay in Sydney for the Robbie Williams concert. The Royal Exhibition Hotel...
Brendan's going to come too, but he's not going to the concert. Kathleen is going to come to the concert with me and Rols will come to Sydney too. The boys can stay at the pub (where were staying at) while we go to the concert. Then afterwards we can all meet up and have a (rest of the) night out.. That's if we feel like it... We will be standing up all night (in the mosh pit..lol..) at the concert, plus, i wonder what the weather is going to be like then??? Hope it's not too hot....
Oh, Kathleen is trying to organise a weekend away to go see Big Brother.. Im not sure if im going to go yet. If it had of been 2+ years ago, i would of done anything to go, but i haven't really got into it as much this year as i previously have.. I think it might just be the housemates, there not really my favourite... BUT, in saying that. I still watch it AND if i can get the chance to go to the Gold Coast, IM THERE!!!!!!!!!!! it will just be the $$$ side of things really.. Im going to have to try & save my butt off heaps really for (the MOST) important thing this year, ROBBIE WILLIAMS concert. So anyhow, Kathleen's looking into it and how much it will cost, when and for how long. I'll wait and see what she comes up with and then decide what to do... Im thinking ahead though, it might be a great chance to catch up with some (online) Qld friends that i have... woohoooo, now that would be great..... i'll keep you posted... :o)

Well, i might go and have a look at my scrappin' stash.. I have stuff ALLLLL over the place & it needs a tidy up big time.. Im about 4 LO's behind in the challenge, so i'd really like to get them done and be able to keep up with them.. This is the most ive ever scrapped i think, its going great...
Ok, i best get going... I'll be back soon as i can...
take care..xx

not happy :o(

2006-06-16T20:28:00.000+10:00

Well, im am sick yet again (i think i said that yesterday in my fly by BRAG post, sorry!!!)
It's the same thing i had last September, for 4wks. Tonsillitis..
Ive had the body aches & pains, that was Monday thru to Wednesday and the sore throat since Monday. This time though, my whole mouth has been really sore.
It started out as a (what i thought) was a little pimple on my lip. Well it might of been, but the infection from my throat & my mouth has caused it to be a yucky infection on my lip (how embarrassing) and boy is it sore!!!!!! (& ugly!!!!) My teeth ache, my gums ache, my lips ache & my throat aches...
The best thing that has come out of this is the reading on the scales... :o)
I'd rather not be in this much pain though...
This week was going to be a huge week..
I was suppose to work everyday but Tuesday, Thursday & Sunday in the day, but i was going to work every single night this week, except for Saturday night. So it was going to be a hectic one... I only ended up working Wednesday night and then i shouldn't of really... (its going to be SOOOO sad come pay day next week!!!!)
Brendan took me into the Dr's this morning. I couldn't see my own, as she wasn't working today, of course!!!! So i saw a different one (& a man too.!!) He was HOPELESS!!!!!! but i now have some EXTRA strong drugs (penicillin) and hopefully they will kick in soon and help everything!!!!!! esp. my lip... And only today the glands in my neck & under my jaw have come up in huge lumps, there so painful, i hope they go down soon too...

Oh we did do something that i probably shouldn't of yesterday, but i was just so sick of being in the house and i would of only been indoors & sitting anyhow...
Brendan & I took Jordan to the movies to see Cars and i can recommend it to anyone, EVERYONE, it was GREAT... Jordan is a HUGE car fan and we thought he would just love it, he did of course. And so did Brendan & I...

Totally disapointed though about being sick!!!!!!
We were suppose to be going camping tomorrow night with Dad, Maxine, Shannon & Lee. But i can't chance going out there in this cold weather.. Gosh, this morning was -3 here, so what would it be like Sunday morning out there (we were going out to an old friend of dad's out near Broke).. I haven't been there since i was about 10 and we use to go HEAPS, so i was really looking forward to going as its been 20yrs since last there and taking the kids would of been great fun.... BUT, i guess i can't help it and there will always be another time... Hopefully in 2wks time we might be able to go then???!!!

Ive neglected my poor blog the last couple of weeks, but with being busy busy at work and now sick this week, im using them as excuses.. I hope i don't neglect you much anymore, sorry....

Ive been doing the challenges over at the The Scrap Heap along with heaps of other ladies.. Who mind you, are fantastic scrappers and i feel terrible embarrassed to show my poor looking LO's.. I did 3 LO's the other day, but i was pretty ill and just wanted to get them done so i wasn't so far behind. I might re-do them again later on when i know i am up to date and have the extra time... I am still 3 behind at the moment, so i should to it but i just dont know if i can be bothered at the moment... If you want to check out my gallery (ooooh, that sounds funny, i have a gallery!!), then click here. My Gallery
Check out everyone else's LO's, they are fantastic... TSH Gallery...

Well, im going to go.. I 'might' sit at my scrappin desk and see if i can do anything, but then again, i might just go to be, YET AGAIN!!!!!!!
Take care everyone... xx

WOOOHOOOOO

2006-06-15T20:11:00.000+10:00

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am going to see Robbie....

I can't stay long, sorry (seems to be the same old story!!!) im sick with tonsilites yet again and need to get back to the lounge & doona...
BUT, i just wanted to share these 2 photos and my exciting news... (well actually, ive known since last Tuesday 5/06, but been really slack!!!)

Here's a copy of the seating for the Sydney concert.. You can just make out the stage area, at the end of the yellow parts.. The floor area is split into 2 sections in front of the stage, WELL, see the FIRST section RIGHT IN FRONT of the stage, yep!!!!!!! Thats where i'll be!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooohooooooooooo!!!!!!

Ckeck out my ticker down the bottom to see what im counting down!!!!!!

Can ya guess??????

woohooo

2006-06-04T18:24:00.000+10:00

wooohoo to both Taylor & Dan...

What a great 2 weeks it has been at sport...
(i have been really slack in updating this week, naughty me!!!!!!)

Last weekend
On Sunday we had our first Gala Day for soccer, @ Bellbird...
First game was at 9.30am- Temambit 3 - 0 which sadly we lost
10.30am- Bellbird 1 - 1 dan goal WOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dan's FIRST EVER GOAL!!!!!!!! and it was a draw, so it was SOOOO exciting...
11.30am- Bolwara/Lorn 5 -0 BAD SPORTS we lost this game, but that's ok, these kids were twice the height of ours and they were extremly bad sports... Yes, i am a loud soccer mum, but an encouraging mum, but when it comes to bad sports, that really gets on my nerve, so *blush* i told 2 little kids off, AFTER they had a shot out 'OUR' supporters, our team players AND MY son!!!!!!!!!!! but anyhow...
1.00pm- Rutherford 2 - 0 even though we lost this game, it was a really good game
2.00pm- St. Joey's 2 - 1 GREAT 1st half, it was 1 all and our little team were playing just great, then sadly they got up and got another goal... Our well, you get that...

Our kids had a great day though, there were totally buggered after it, but they got a little medallian after it and thought it was the best thing ever.. Plus they were counting the draw as a win, (cause we got the first goal..lol..) so thats ok, all in fun....

What else has happened during the week?????
I have no idea??? I can't remember, i know i have been working HEAPS this week, so maybe that's all ive done.. It's all just a blur really...

I have a SCRAP & CHAT day planned for this coming Saturday (long weekend), can't wait for that... I sent my friend (see prev. blog entry) a text to see if she wanted to come too, but i haven't heard from her, so i guess she doesn't want to talk to me anymore??? :o(

Exciting news for Taylor....
She tried out for the choir the other week and got told this week, at assembly, in front of everyone, that she got IN, wooooohoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! she was so excited, as was her very proud mum.. (with tears & all!!!!)

This weekend of sport....
Taylor played at 9am, they played Cheeky Monkeys (i think??) and we won 36 - 3... wooohoooo.
Taylor played WA for the 1st half of the game and then played GS for the 2nd half... She got 10 goals in..... woooooooohooooooooo
Then we went straigth to soccer (played at home), against Weston...
When we got there it was 0 all.. At half time the score was 1 - 0... (there way)
then for a really GREAT 2nd half & all excited... Weston scored and not long after, we scored..
With only about 5mins to go and us having about 15 attempts at goals, WE SCORED!!!!!!!!!!! (with a little bit of help from one of Weston's boots) BUT we wont mention that...
WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO our first win of the year and only our 2nd win in 3yrs.... how exciting.....

I had the Elsley girls come over, Maddison is Taylor's friend, Tayla is Dan's wife and Hannah is Jordan's girlfriend... It is so funny (& cute) that the 3 girls are the same age as my 3 and they are all great friends...
So SIX kids for the arvo, how exciting, NOT!!!!!!!!!!! no, they were good...
Taylor & Dan then slept over at there house for the night...
It was just Jordan & I home for the night and boy was it nice & quiet...
We went to the Chelli for tea, then came home (Brendan stayed there to watch the footy)..
When we got home, Jordan played the Playstation all night & I surfed the net and then did 2 LO's...

I have took on the Daily Challenges at The Scrap Heap. A 'challenge' is set for the day and you have to make a LO about that challenge.. And then post it in the Gallery...

When i get home tonight (im at work atm) i will up load some photos to this blogg entry... :o)
I probably had more to talk about, but for the life of me, i just can't remember...
It is SOOOOOOOOO packed at work tonight. Not just the raffle crowd are here, but Kurri (local football team) played at home today against Cessnock (local rivals) and we WON!!!!!!! all 3 grades too, gosh!!!!!!!!! They started off the year with a couple of wins in a row and then things went down hill... So they haven't won a game in a little while... Because we are there major sponsor, they come back here to have there celebration drinks.. (or to drown there sorrows if they lose!!!) And because they have won today, there are more of them and they are here longer....
But sitting in my office, with the main window open, in the foyer, i only see people coming & going and it is FREEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZING sitting here tooo.... I have my air-con cranked up behind me, but with the main doors opening & closing the freezing air is coming straight in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bbbbbbbbbrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Okay, ive raved enough for now... I'll add some piccies here as soon as i can....
Have a great week & take care............. :o)

Isn't it funny....

2006-05-27T23:19:00.000+10:00

.... how just a couple of words, put together (in a quick little email) can change a whole outlook on things...
What a shitty week it has been...
Nothing life threatning, so i guess i should just wake up to myself and get over it, there are many many things worse than this, but why is it just so hard to contemplate....????

I received a very strange email from one of my best friends this week. Actually, she sent it over a week ago, but cause of my STUPID computer, i didn't see it till the middle of this week... And whoa!!!!!! Wasn't that a huge slap on the face...
I love my friend so dearly and out of respect for her, i wont go into what she has/is going through in her life, on here, but she has had a really really tuff year... As best as i could, i reached out to her, as i or anyone would naturally do and (i think) she knows i am ALWAYS here for her, but she has (i think) needed to get through these times on her own, in her own way... I respect her for that, i don't want to smother her, even though i have so wanted to badly, so often. But that's not the right thing to do, for her sake...
I haven't really heard from her much this year with all that has been going on and i understand that... But then to get a 'what the' email from her, it has just blown me completely away...
Since something happened a couple of months ago, i have been so worried & upset and i guess depressed about it and it just wont go away... i can't stop thinking about what might of been and what could of been.. What could i have done to change things, to fix things.. All the What if's. and i just can't seem to answer them... I wake up in the middle of the night in a heap of tears, i have nightmares, i get so lonely & sad, i just can't stop thinking!!!!!!!!
I have never told her this, its not her worry.. She has enough to worry about without listening/knowing my stupid thoughts!!!!!!!!!!
Anyhow, im raving on now... I know what im thinking & i know what i want to say, but its probably best just to keep it to myself and i guess GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

This week has not only been a hard week (cause of the above), but it has been the anniversary of my grandfathers death...
Now if anyone around me heard me say that, they would say 'what the???' as i have never had anything to do with my grandfather... I think i have seen him about 10 times in my 30yrs.. & probably only spoken, like a quick hello, to him about 5 times... AND that was cause i said it first!!!!!!!
Anyhow, in support of my mum (who he also had nothing to do with) i went to the funeral with her. That was Thursday 26th of May 2005... I was the one that ended up in the HUGE blubbering mess and my mum had to support me.... how ironic is that!!!!!!!! I always & always will think about him and all the things i missed out on and what my kids never knew.. Well of couse they never do, i don't know....
It always then comes back to my lovely darling sister, NOT!!!!!!!!
who wont have anything to do with us and how heartbreaking it is to know i have a sister and she wants nothing to do with me or my children... She is my only sibling and my kids are her only niece & nephews.....

What else exciting has been happening this week?????
I am working heaps more lately, i think it is starting to take a toll on my..
I am working Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Wednes. nights, Fridays, Friday nights, (the last 2 weeks) Saturday mornings (instead of sunday mornings) and Sunday nights... Also my extra 4hrs (poker machine clearance) every fortnight!!!!.... This week is going to be extra busy too, as it is the end of our financial year (we have always finished a month before the 'real' one!!!) so lots of stocktaking will have to be done!!!
THEN, the week after that, Matthew is going to Germany (for the Worldcup) so WOOOOHOOOOO, theres some extra hours at work that will have to be made up for... how great, NOT!!!!!!!!! oh and that's for a whole month, wooohoooo...

Oh bugger, i need to get to bed... Ive done nothing but whinge & complain & sulk in this post....
Its 11.30pm and we have a HUGE day tomorrow and i haven't even done a thing for it...
Dan has a gala day at Bellbird for soccer and we'll have to leave here at 7.30am.. I haven't even packed our lunches yet...
I haven't even washed the kids school clothes yet ready for the week and im sure we'll be at soccer all day tomorrow and then i have to go to work tomorrow night, wooohooo, great... can't wait....
I best go before i start to wilt even more... lol aren't a morbid sod!!!!

Songs on my MP3 player

2006-05-20T21:40:00.000+10:00

i love my new mp3 player, it holds up to 240 songs and i can't wait to have it full...
At work we download songs all the time and usually just listen to them over & over. There are about 120 songs currently in our playlist.
Most of them i pick, & even though there is a few songs on there that nobody else likes, (but i don't care), there are a lot of songs that we all like... I just LOVE music, i love all sorts of music and could just listen to it for hours... Give me music over tv anyday... Some songs i have down loaded don't really 'flow' but that's the best thing about having a 1GB player, i can store them all on it until it gets full and i replace them with my current favourites... :o)
Here is a list of the songs on it at the moment...

Don't Lie - Black Eyed Peas (i just LOVE all of B E P's songs)
Who Says You Can't Go Home - Bon Jovi & Sugarland (OMG, BJ has a new song out and i just LOVE IT!!!!!!!)
Not Pretty Enough - Kasey Chambers (i am a HUGE KC fan, just love her!!!)
House of the Rising Sun - Animals
I Will Survive - Aretha Franklin
God Is a DJ - Pink
Stupid Girls - Pink
Catch My Disease - Ben Lee
Who Knew - Pink
Into the Dark - Ben Lee
Check On It - Beyonce Ft. Slim Thug (i love this song at the moment!!!)
My Humps - B E P's
Pump It - B E P's
Forever Young - Youth Group
Don't Funk With My Heart - B E P's
Where is the Love - B E P's
Lets Get it Started - B E P's
Shut Up - B E P's
Stop Children, What's that Sound - (From Forrest Gump)
On The Road Again - Canned Heat
Brown Eyed Girl - Credance Clearwater
Lookin' out My Back Door - CCW
This is the Song For the Lonely - Cher (this is the theme song for Weight Watchers, it is GREAT to walk to...)
Lady Marmalade - Christina Aguilara, Lil' Kim, Mya & Pink
Down on The Corner - CCW
Bad Moon Rising - CCW
Rollin On the River - CCW
Hey Tonight - CCW
Horse with No Name - America
Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Free Loop - Daniel Powter
Give Me Life - Daniel Powter
Landslide - Dixie Chicks
Long Time Gone - Dixie Chicks
Wide Open Spaces - Dixie Chicks
American Pie - Don McLean
Dirty - Christina Agulaira
Cool - Gwen Stefani
Beat of My Heart - Hillary Duff (all the HD songs were to copy to Tay's mp3 player, but HD is great to walk to too!!!)
Let The Rain Fall Down - Hillary Duff
So Yesterday - Hillary Duff
Wake Up - Hillary Duff
Someone's Watching Over Me - Hillary Duff
You Sexy Thing - Hot Chocolate (ive always just LOVED this song..)
Candy - Iggy Pop & Kate Pierson (i LOVE the B52's, i have ALL there albums)
From Paris To Berlin - Infernal
Let Me Entertain You - Robbie Williams (he is HOT!!!!)
Rock DJ - Robbie Williams
Tears And Rain - James Blunt (i love JB's whole album)
High - James Blunt
No Bravery - James Blunt
Wisemen - James Blunt
You're Beautiful - James Blunt
Big Yellow Taxi - Joni Mitchell
Million Tears - Kasey Chambers
True Colours - Kasey Chambers (i sang this song for my HSC, *blush*)
Becasue of You - Kelly Clarkson
Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Miss Inderpendant - Kelly Clarkson
Angels - Robbie Williams
Can't Fight The Moonlight - LeAnne Rimes (i love C. Ugly)
The Right Kind of Wrong - LeAnne Rimes
How Do I Live Without You - LeAnne Rimes
Trippin - Robbie Williams
Together We Are One - Delta Goodrem (Commonwealth Games song)
Wasabi - Lee Harding (i didn't even know him, until he supported SN)
Millenium - Robbie Williams & Kylie Minogue
Sweet Home Alabama - Lynrd Skynrd
Hung Up - Madonna
I Come From A Land DownUnder - Men At Work
Sweetest Thing - U2
Far Away - Nickelback
Photograph - Nickelback
California Dreamin' - The Mamas & The Pappas
Begin - Ben Lee
Hey Ya - Outkast
Dontcha - Pussycat Dolls
Stick Wit U - Pussycat Dolls
Almost Here - Delta Goodrem ft. Brian McFadden
Pon De Preplay (Hey Mista DJ) - Rihannan
SOS - Rihannan (this is my fav. 'new' song atm, it is also my song for Jazz)
Watching You - Rogue Traders
Way to Go - Rogue Traders
Voodoo Child - Rouge Traders
Mystery Girl - Roy Orbinson
Lift - Shannon Noll (i just LOVVVVVVVEEEEE SN!!!!!!!!!)
Drive - Shannon Noll
Now I Run - Shannon Noll
Shine - Shannon Noll
Six Feet Under Main Theme Song - Thomas Newman (not only do i LOVE this show, but i just LOVE this music (its also my ring tone on my phone... it is GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
If Your Going To San Fransisco - Forrest Gump Soundtrack
Push the Button - Sugarbabes
Boys Don't Cry - The Cure
Friday Im in Love - The Cure
Lullaby - The Cure
Light My Fire - The Doors
Riders On the Storm - The Doors
4ever - The Veronicas
Everything Im Not - The Veronicas
Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve
Beautiful Day - U2
With or Without You - U2
Born to Try - Delta Goodrem
Naughty Girl - Beyonce

OMG, yes, that is all of them, phewww..
Sorry if any of them are spelt wrong, ive just read them off the player which just come straight from the downlaod... (& im now getting tired..lol.)

Mother's Day

2006-05-15T22:27:00.000+10:00

Happy Mother's Day ...
(for yesterday)

I had a great day...
I got very spoilt and it was really nice...

I went to work at 4.00am VERY rare for me to acheive that.. I came home around 7.00am, put my pj's back on and got back into bed, with Jordan & Brendan... lol
I got in another 2hrs sleep before the kids wanted to wake me up...
Jordan gave me a bookmark that he had drawn on from his pre-school.. He thought it was great to tell me he had drawn me, with a big belly (thanks Jordie) that he loved.. awwwwwww
Dan had bought me a square metal plant box and it came with a packet of sunflower seeds and i also got a wool crochet coathanger.
Taylor had bought me a tea light holder, blue with a flower on it and a little plastic teddy shaped thingy (lol) that has bath soap in it..
Brendan, from the kids of couse, bought me a new MP3 player, woooohoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!
I already have one, that mum gave me with my stereo, but it only holds about 24 songs... This new one (pict. above) holds about 240 songs... (I already have 92 on it from work on Sunday night)... woohoooo, its great...
I found this picture of it on the net, but it hasn't shown up here very good... Im yet to get a photo of all my presents, but i'll do it asap and show it then...
After i got all my pressies, Brendan had made me scrambled eggs, with a crossont(sp??) and orange juice.. I did get to have it in bed, but i thought it would be a bit messy... So i had it at the b'fast bar instead... While he did the dishes and the kids started to have there showers...
When we were ready, we headed over to mums to give her, her presentss..
After leaving there (i wanted her to come with us, but she wouldn't!!)
We then went to Patterson to have lunch at the pub there... Then Brendan saw a sign for a 'Arts & Craft' show at Vacy, so he took us a drive to there... That was a total shock as he has NEVER done that sort of thing before, so it was so nice... But sadly, when we got there it was only an art show.. It was pretty interesting though and the kids thought it was pretty kewl.. Esp. Taylor, as she loves to draw...
After leaving Vacy we headed to Dungog (about 25mins away) for a scenic drive... Once we got there, Brendan was ready for a coffee, so we found a little coffee shop and stopped for a bite... He had his coffee & cake and the kids & i had an ice-cream...
We then made the 45min drive home.. Called into mums again to pick up some rabbit food....

We were only at home for about an hour and then it was time for me to go to work, again...
Which wasn't too bad, its a pretty easy shift on a Sunday night, PLUS i got to download my songs from work onto my new mp3 player... :o)
After work & the raffle, Brendan & the kids came down and we had dinner with his mum, Shannon & Brett...
Went home around 9pm and crashed soon after....

All in all, even though i had to work in the am & the pm, it was a great day.... Lots of spoiling my way, i could certainly get use to that.... lol

I hope everyone had a great day...

Just some info. on my player, incase i need it later... lol

1GB of memory plays back over 16 hours of MP3 (32 hours of WMA) music (over 240 MP3/480 WMA songs)*
Supports Microsoft PlaysForSure Downloads and Subscription
Up to 19 hours continuous playback using one AAA Battery* (included) * Based on standard playback, 128 Kb MP3 files
Support for MP3, WMA, and DRM WMA and Audible file formats
FM tuner (20 preset stations)
Voice recording w/built-in microphone
Choose to play your favorite track repeatedly, in random sequence, or play all the songs continuously
Hi-speed USB 2.0 connects to almost any computer for hi-speed music transfer (backwards compatible to USB 1.1 ports)
Comes with sleek carrying case and armband to protect your player and keep your hands free
Indigo backlit LCD provides ID3 Tag information (v.1 and 2)

The week in review...

2006-05-13T20:19:00.000+10:00

Nothing really that exciting has happened here this week, but that's not unusual...

Monday was just another busy day at work...
Tuesday i had the day off work to catch up on some things around the house, ready for a busy working week. But was a bit lazy and mainly watched the telly with 'The Great Escape'...
Wednesday was just back to work, and then again at 5.30pm too for a couple of hours..
Thursday Jordan & I went to Glendale to pick up a layby and then came home & cleaned up my bedroom at a bit, as a small bomb had decided to land in it...
Friday was a 'long' lunch day at work. I love these days... Got picked up at 10.30am to go to work, when i got there i put a TSH order in, woohoooo. We then left at 12pm to go to Wallsend Diggers to check out there outdoor furniture, as we need new furniture for our new outdoor verandah at work (or the 'smoker's deck its really built for!!) we only stayed there for about 10mins and then went into Merewether to have lunch at the Mary Ellen, yummo!!!!!!!!! We left there at about 6.30pm (all payed for by work of course!!!!!!) Julie then dropped Matt, Vic & I off at the Chelly and we stayed there for the rest of the evening... Brendan came up about 10pm (i think??) and we had a few more and then he took me home...
Saturday we got up around 7.30am got ready and i went & picked the kids up from Shannon & Brett's. Bought them home to get ready for sport... It was Brendan's turn to go to Netball today and my turn to go to Soccer with Dan..
Dan played at home against Singleton and (yet again :o( ) we lost 4 - 0.. Taylor had a great game, they played the Cheeky Monkeys. We won, woohooo 23 - 3. She only played half a game, so they left & came over to soccer to see the 2nd half... We then went into Rebel Sport and bought Dan a new pair of Soccer Boots as his old ones were just getting too tight (& impossible to get on)... So he will be decked out in new Nike (white, yuk!!) boots next week... I'll try & get a photo when i can...

That's my week.. Not really that exciting, but at least there has been no dramas... :o)
I'll have to go to bed soon. Im going to try & go to work around 4.30am and get things all done & then be out of there by arount 6.30/7.00am to be back home and in bed. Ready for when the kids get up... They are looking forward to tomorrow to give me my Mother's Day presentS that they bought at school... (yep, more than 1, woohooo!!!!)

I just wanted to share with you my Mother's Day present from last year... It was one of the BESTEST presents i ever got!!!!!! Not only because i love it so much, but because Brendan is usually a last min. thought kind a gift giving person. And that usually means not a lot of thought went into it... BUT this present, it was actually something that i had really really wanted AND he had obviously got in early and went & seeked it out... When i got my presents last year off the kids (after i had been to work and then climbed back into bed)(& we don't believe in buying for each other, he's not my dad & im not his mum, so it is always FROM the kids!!!!) When i opened my present & saw what it was, i bawled my eyes out for AGES!!!!!!!! It was just so special & great that he had done that....
BUT, i didn't actually get it straight away, i had to get a voucher for it, because they don't stock these in the surf shop (cause there too expensive) incase they don't sell.. He had been to 3 different Surf Shops to find it.. I had to get a voucher and go in & order it myself, BUT the thought was definately there and it was EXACTLY what i wanted...
Ok, raved enough... I wonder what i get IF ANYTHING tomorrow... lol.....
goodnight....
Mine is the pink face one... :o)