OMG!!! $9000.00

OMG!!!!!! what a crappish week so far it has been..
BUT, i have to go pick Jordan up from dancing. Hopefully some stage later i will fill you in on my week.....

Hi, im back...
Ive seem to of neglected my 'thought's here yet again, sorry..

Last week seems to be a bit of a blur now..
Telisha came down from Port Macquarie and stayed with us for 2 nights..
Taylor was extremely naughty while she was here, which isn't like her, but i think she is at 'that' age and was showing off a bit for Telisha being here. She made up for it at the weekend though. She had another sleep over on Saturday night at Danielle's again..
She had a great game at Netball on Saturday (she actually played against Danielle..lol..) Our Gucci Girls won (against Diva's) 10 - 5. And Taylor got one of those goals.. They didn't play the last quarter as it pee'ed down with rain..
We then headed over to soccer, where the boys were (Brendan & Jordan) to watch Dan play soccer...... i HATE it how netball & soccer is on at the same time, it isn't fair and i have to miss out on something...
Dan had a great game Brendan said.. We played against Abermain. Sadly (yet again) we lost 0 - 2. But it was a good game Brendan said, so that's all that matters really.....

Brendan & I raced home and got ready. Shannon & Brett picked us up at 11.30am and dropped us off at Broadmeadow, at NJC (newcastle raceway)..
Brendan, Mum & i went to the races for the day, i got 4 tickets from work for us to go to the members stand for the day.. Stephen was going to come with us, but he had to play bowls & work, so we just took mum out for the day with us...
We had a great day, i didn't win anything, but then i don't really bet. I'd rather 'drink' my money.. lol.. *blush*

Katie had wanted to go out on a girls night out that night, so i told her we were going to the races, but i was going to the pub afterwards (karaoke was on, which is always a fun/funny night)... She said her & Michelle would come up afterwards and join us for the night...
I had not heard from her AT ALL about coming or what was going on, so i just assumed they would be up around 6.30/7.00pm (like she has previously)... We didn't rush home, as i hadn't heard from her and i just thought she might not even come up, which has happened before...
Mum, Brendan & I got the bus after the races, into Hamilton. We went to the Kent for a drink, which was OMG!!!!!!! mum had a schooner of light, it was $3.40, OMG!!!!!! our schooners for full strength, at work is only $2.40... how can they do that!!!!!!!! We then walked up to SJ's and had a couple there, but it was exactly the same too... what a rip off!!!!!!!!
Brad kindly came down and picked us up from Hamilton and dropped us off at the Bowling Club...
I got a text message on the way home, from Katie, asking where i was. She told me she was at the Club waiting for me!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for the notice..
I told her i was on my way. She then decided that they would go for a drive to Bellbird and see if Sally was there, to say hi...
We got back to the Club and Brendan went & ordered some dinner for himself. I sat with him while he ate it and Mum sat out in the club waiting for us..
Katie & Michelle turned up & sat with mum while waiting for us...
When i got round there, Katie told me that she had a headache and wasn't into being out much....
Michelle got a phone call & wanted to go out in town (Hamilton). So Katie said her headache was bad, she would drop Michelle off and go home!!!!!!!!
How cheated did i feel.. I had been waiting ages for this night and i was let down... So i feel....
Apparently, while i was still on my way there. Vic (my boss) was talking to both the girls and they were saying how excited they were about the night, they were keen for a big one and was really looking forward to it. They couldn't wait to go out for the night....
I think that im no longer good enough for Katie anymore... Im not going to go into all the details about how she is going now, what she has gone through and what she has acheived, maybe one day i will...
I walked the girls out to the car, to say hi.. They raved about going out on the town one night, girls only and we'll have to do it real soon....
Brendan told me tonight, that mum had told him how disappointed she was in Katie for her behaviour & her disappointing me like that....
I know i sound childish, but i don't really want to get into it at the moment, i am hurt by what has happend & it it saddens me......
Anyhow, had my cry and we left the Club & got the courtesy bus over to the Cri... (which for those playing at home, is the pub up the road from our house. Our local drinking spot and stumble, i mean easy walk home!!!!)
Kathleen was suppose to meet me at the Cri for a few drinks after the party she was going to and guess what?????? She didn't show up either.....
YAY, i had a wonderful night... Spent a great, fun time with my closest friends...... NOT!!!!!

Anyhow, Sunday morning i had to go to work... Came home, had a sleep on the lounge, didn't really do much but it was nice & restful.. I then had to go to work again that night.........
I felt like i was in a depressed state all day Sunday. I tried to get over it, but i just couldn't get passed it........


Monday, i had the day off...
Jordan went back to pre-school and i took the kids into KMart..... Taylor needed a new school bag and i was hoping to find something (cheap) nice to wear out that night...
Came home and got some housework done & cooked dinner...
Picked Jordan up from school and went to the hair dresses to get my hair straightened....
Really quickly got the kids ready for dancing (Tay), Soccer (Dan) and Jordan was going to the gym with mum... I also had to get myself ready...
Mum picked us up and dropped Tay & Dan off and then she dropped me off at the Station (yep, another pub... anyone would think i was an alcoholic!!!!)
Mum picked the kids up from sport, gave them there tea, put them in there pj's and Brendan picked them up when he got home from work...
That night was our staff social.. We put $5 a week into an account and let it build up. We then go out for the evening, usually every 3mths, when we have a nice little kitty built up (like this time it was around $2200).....
Got to the Station around 4.15pm and got home around 2am. It was an early one for once... tea was yummy as always...

On the Tuesday, i said i would work, cause usually the boys get a wee little bit (extremely) drunk and its not nice to have to work the next day like that. So i said i would do the 'open up' shift.. I forgot about the kids going back to school that day though, when i said i would do it... Oh well, you get that...
i had to get them up extra early, get them ready and be at work by 8am...
We took there b'fast with them and they sat in front of the bar, ate there weekbix and watch abc/kids, while i got the money out of the poker machines...
I then dropped them at school at 9am and went back to work...

I bought a new pair of boots last Friday, and wore them to the races on Saturday. By the end of the day/night, by feet were killing me, but only the one foot. (that must be my biggest foot).. My feet were still a bit sore on the Monday, but i thought it was just from the boots still..
But come Tuesday, i couldn't walk on my right foot.. My little toe is soooooo sore & swollen, i can't get my shoe on.. I was so cranky by the afternoon, as my foot was aching HEAPS and i couldnt even go to the gym.. :o(
Today (Wednesday) my foot is still killing me...
I couldn't even go to dancing last night, cause i can't get my jogger on...


Last night (Tuesday) i decided to open up the days mail.
There was a nice little letter from Centerlink AND guess what it was about.......
I owe them $9000.00.. wooohooooo, yipppeeee...
Lets just pluck a couple of grand out of my a$%# and start waving it around for anyone that wants it, yippeee!!!!!!!
Anyhow, im not going to talk abou that, its depressing enough just seeing it writtten there, let alone trying to think of where im going to get a hold of something like that.... Its' bad enough trying to make ends meet already, let alone adding this to wounds!!!!!!

Taylor & I did some grocery shopping on Sunday arvo and we decided to make home-made pizza's for dinner...
We bought the pizza base, added tomato paste, then ham. Then some pineapple, bbq chicken, bbq sauce, corn kernals, (weight watchers) grated cheese... Cooked it in the over, which didn't take long really...
Once we cut it up and dished it out, Taylor & I added Sour Light Cream to the top of ours and it was soooooooooo yummy..... (Taylor & I then had it again Monday night... lol.. )

Anyhow, sorry about the rant & the rave.. Sorry i haven't been keeping up...
I always seem to get depressed when it comes to money (who doesn't probably) and this week is no different... It has just been an added bonus of my loyal friends thrown in too....
I am the type of person and is there for my friends no matter what.. I am not one to talk about me or my feelings, (i keep them bottled up) but will be there in a split second to be the shoulder to lean on, the ear to listen... I go out of my way ALL THE TIME, for anyone... I am very defensive when it comes to sticking up for my friends and i try to do as much as i can for anyone, othere than myself.. Just once in my life, i would love someone to do that for me, just once....
God im a sook..... I need to shut up and stop ranting & raving and feeling sorry for myself and just get on with things....
sorry.....

What's going on tomorrow???????? My only day off and its exciting housework day.... lol
I hope my toe is better tomorrow... Esp. cause i have pole dancing tomorrow night.... lol